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Please keep in mind that English is my fourth language
and I am not attempting to write here a piece of literary art,
but to give you a summation of knowledge as quickly as it comes to me,
although I have been sitting on some of the words written here for many years.
The time came to set aside the language handicap and speak my mind.

November 05, 2017

The Universe-mind has no wrong force. The Universe-body is full of wrong forces


The years of conversations and contemplations of sorting out lives, left me with a sizable

codex of outgrown truths. The learning what is true never ends. The old truths do not vanish.

As if navigated by a master of confusion, even though its context gets smaller and they lose relevance,

they look for the way back to human minds to gain power and grow bigger. What’s the point of that!?

The point is to TAKE. By the confusion and deception, minds of darkness, that have no direct access

to the source of energy – the light, give us the shove towards poring energy in the wrong force in the universe.

The Universe–mind has no wrong force. The Universe–body is full of wrong forces.  

Make sure that, while you are looking for truth, you don’t feed the darkness in you by following the thoughts

of darkness, or on others by speaking and lacing it with emotions. All emotions can be turn into feelings.

Read the next post. I will tell you how.

October 7, 2016

One year later


The move to living full time in Costa Rica brought an amazing and a creative year.

And what an eventful year it was! Full of repositioning, adjusting, scraping some plans and creating new ones.

The 64 -65th year of my life was one of the adventurous and challenging, yet positive and fruitful.

The idea, without much of premeditation, to live full time in a warm country, where you don't need much cloths

and the food is growing around you in the wild, was by far my best, when comes to comfort and ease of life.

I wanted to show everybody how easy and peaceful is to live here.

Unfortunately, my invitation extended to those who don’t have ease of creation and the support of the

Universe brought more liability than joy to my home.

From the freeloaders, expecting with no contribution to be hosted fed and served, to wanna-be boyfriends,

trying to have a ride to good life on my creation I learned again a lesson.

Again I crossed the line where goodness ends and stupidity begins.

The world of others that is either stagnant or evolving soooo very slowly has to left behind in my professional and private life. 

I can’t give anyone my courage, trust, ease of positioning self on the grid of creation, where there is a full support of the Universe.

All that is absolutely on our own merit.

When sharing, openness and speaking truth has no intention of an exchange, when it is based on giving and

accepting gifts of others without expecting it, the energy of the universe will feel supportive and loving.

It is not an easy road to walk, but it is worth it. 

Because I live in an attractive place for tourists to make sure that I am supporting the light I decided to limit my visitors

to my children, my very close friends and close friends of my children.

Now, how is it to live here? For me, with courage, trust, ease of creation and the support of the Universe, amazingly beautiful,

warm, healthy and simple.

Morning walks on the beach with the neighbor's dog Sam, who became part time my dog, work through Skype with only few students.

reflecting, contemplating... swimming in the pool and rarely in the ocean as it doesn’t feel that responsible to go for it alone, doing a bit of yoga,

eating good, local food and playing music. Time to time, chatting with locals and new friends and writing books for children and another one for adults.

More on creative thoughts tomorrow...

October 5, 2015

Delete button

Freedom in life basically consists knowing the voice that uses you as an another hard drive
willing to copy its narrow truths, and learning how to delete it.
When you figure out this game designed to reduce you to a pawn, then you really change and become free.
September 18, 2015

God gave a party

World accordingly to ego:

God gave a party
And no one came
God gave the understanding
And no one changed
God gave spirit
And no one cared
God gave love
But no one shared
God gave happiness
And everyone cried
God gave life
And everyone died.

World accordingly to Authentic you:

God gave a party
And everyone came!
God gave the understanding
For everyone to learn
God gave spirit
For everyone to care
God gave love
For everyone to share
God gave happiness
For everyone, a lot
God gave life
And you never forgot.

August 23, 2015
Facts; or bragging to the ego.

I have three children. I didn’t have a husband since they were 3, 2 years, and 2 months old, I still don't.

I worked, I still do.

I studied, I still do.

I moved twice countries of residence with my children.

Sold and bought houses.

I travelled mostly with my children and went for many events with them.

I had them in music, voice, dancing, swimming and drama, classes.

They played volleyball, basketball, went on school trips, including international, and had parties for 50 at our home.

They are now 33, 32, and 30.

Was it hard?

Maybe twice I broke down and cried.

The rest of the time we had a ball! My son was 12 when he asked me “Do you work?  You look like do nothing at all.”


Yes. Gratefulness and joy of life becomes your magic. Life becomes effortless and you look like you do nothing all.

No I didn’t have grannies or grandpas, nor any extended family to help. Some good neighbors helped time to time.

I was 95% on time, and if I wasn’t, it had to be a really high water.


Yes. Understanding life, time, energy and assuming 100% responsibility for everything in your life. becomes your magic. 

Every breath, every step, every minute is your job to account for. Than all becomes a flow.

I teach people for years how to figure out life and some learn, but most don’t. They must have signed for harder life...

or they have easier than I did, but they make it hard.

Which one you are? The one who learned or the one who makes it hard?

July 24, 2015
Emotions are not part of love.
The most important piece of wisdom about the difference between feelings and emotions I can offer you at this moment
(tomorrow another one might come) is… that in any emotional state you draw energy from the Universal Creative Mind – Light
and you give it to the Universal Destructive Mind - darkness.
You are becoming an energetic liability.
You cannot create, you cannot live in abundance, and you cannot be sovereign.
You are part of the collective mind of darkness, manipulated by the forces with no good intentions towards you, nor other beings of this Universe.
On the other hand in the state of feelings you generate energy. You are never liability – you are an asset. You are sovereign, you create,
you live in abundance, and you are untouchable by the darkness.
If you are on a spiritual path (wisdom, truth, love, goodness) you are setting yourself back when you get into a state of emotions, even for a brief time.
You will recognize that you shifted your assets from authentic to ego. Some transfer assets and spend them until they bankrupt and blame others
for pulling them into the darkness / emotional world. Nope, you are responsible for it all!
The most dangerous play with an emotional world is to create an energetic openness to an intimate partner, assuming that he/she is equally benign,
only to find out that they are attacking you emotionally. By being moody, critical, ridiculing you, condescending, deceitful, your partner,
using an open door to your energetic field - the love of equal, will begin draining your energy.
When you recognize that your partner is taking your energy you normally start a defense to stop that.
Every attempt to close the energetic door fails.
Angry you try to throw him/her out of your heart / love / energetic field, but soon you lose the anger, (emotions are short lived),
start forgiveness and she is back in your field.
And you keep struggling usually with huge loses of energy only to find out that you have no strength left, you become hopeless and broke.
Why because it is not true that you can outlive your love. You must learn that love doesn't mean relationship.
To love and yet give up on the idea of relationship is a hardest thing to do!
How many times I see the union based on love and hope, yet between unequal that inevitably ends with an energetic and usually
a financial bankruptcy of the one who loved and hoped.
Watch emotions. The one who lives in the drama of their emotional mind will drain the other dry.
How can you change the dynamism?
Telling them to stop seems hopeless, because the never do, maybe for a short time but not for good.
What to do?
Once you open your energy with the intention to love and create partnership it feels like goose is cocked!
So what is the solution?
Well, unplug your emotions. So hard to do! Yet, you invited this particular partner to learn exactly that!
Even if you are provoked many times a day, go to feelings of care, love, neutrality and understanding the pain of the spouse,
who is fighting his emotional demons.
Without the sparring partner on the emotional arena the world of emotions will be replaced by feelings of love and joy.
Let’s hope in this lifetime.



July 17, 2015
Love your body?
Concept of loving your body, as many concepts of social and personal positioning, is ridden with ego confusion.
1. Perceiving physical body as your main identity, by far the most important, or often the only identity.
Stemming from a materialistic view of life and Darwinian Theory of origin of humanity, which gave social power to pharmaceutical industry,
physicians and body care industry, perception of physical body as human identity is perhaps the most dispowering concept,
yet successfully sold to socially developed world.
Even though percentage of people who believe in a higher power ranges from 85% worldwide and 95% in North America, the lack of daily self-reflection
and simply “laziness of thought” pushes people towards following untruths and giving time and energy / life, to support the dark force of the Universe.
The same force that creates atrocities in one part of the world, will convince you to give up power over your life to your physician.
2. Treating your body as a separate identity.
Your body is not your pet, or your old car in a junkyard. Looking after your body is not a full time job, a chore that you resent,
nor is a responsibility you can take it or leave it. Your body is your co-creation to experience an access to life energy
and it is designed for an optimal opportunity to increase your presence of the timeless you forever. Beyond time.   
3. Taking care of your body as the only self-care.
There are many bodies of your being and we can generally split them into basic three:
Causal - timeless you, Authentic identity,
Subtle - energetic, field in and around you and
Gross – your physical body.
Looking only after your physical body will leave you inevitably disappointed, it will age and die or get sick, damaged and die.
Distribute your time and energy wisely in proportions Causal / Subtle / Gross to 50 / 25 / 25. Your life will become authentically fulfilling.

July 15, 2015
The love for another as a partner, although absolutely necessary, is not enough. What is also absolutely necessary,
although rarely taught and understood - it’s equality.
Love for your partner leading to commitment, differs from all other subjects and objects of our love and love based relationships,
because only your partner requires to be your equal.
You can love and have relationships with entities of all possible inequalities, including different species, but that’s not a partnership.
In a relationship of unequal somebody walks another out on their way home, and sooner or later they have to go back where they left their path
and start walking their walk. If you do it for a brief time it's fine, I do it for living, but if you do it on daily bases for a long time,
some even for a lifetime, you wasted your life on a co-dependency.
Similarities of interests, activities, cultural background, family of origin and other possible factors contributing  to your self-description
are secondary and do not guarantee the stability of the relationship.
When you have equality and love you have timeless base, all other factors and experiences are time-limited, transitory
and changeable during life time.
Now, what is the equality?
The equality is a “size” of your Authentic identity versus the size of your ego, similar and comparable with another person’s ratio.
Authentic identity is an Eye of God that is looking at your life from within you.
How often you see your life though this Eye (I), how large is your view and most importantly, how easy is for you to navigate
your life from this perspective, constitutes your size of light within you.
You can compare your Authentic identity, this Eye of God within you to a full moon, completely illuminated by the light of Sun
at the time of your birth, and the ego programs to a rotating and travelling Earth, that will inevitably cover some of your light,
through out your entire earthly life.
When you figure out how this happens in your life, you figured out life.
And now you can understand the purpose of every life.
We all suppose to make sure that our light not only stays untouched by the ego, but also becomes greater as we learn to generate love/light.
Only then we do not dim the light of others by coming close with our ego in intimate relationship of equals.
To see in self and then in others how much of each light is covered, and how much it left to shine – is your guide to equality.
How do you measure this? Every being on God’s Earth, including plants, animals, even a bacteria has a measuring stick. We all know what’s light,
what’s darkness, what’s supportive of life, benign, and what’s destructive, toxic.
When you meet people, look them in the eyes. Don’t wonder what they see when they look at you, don’t project your presence on the interaction,
just focus on what you see, hold the gaze and search in your mind for answer.
Are you impressed with the light of the other, moved by it, or you are unaffected or even disappointed with the size / intensity of the light in another?
Practice this measuring and I would enjoy hearing about your results.
May 16, 2015
 A child will be grateful.
One of the most confusing topics in raising children is teaching and implementing discipline.
Not in a distant past, 30 years or so, beating children, euphemistically called corporal punishment, was an inherent part of disciplining.
Generation after generation, humanity grew more aware that it was wrong way of teaching children and generation after generation
they failed to follow through with their intention to change.
A human ego is tenacious. You try to push it a notch towards new, it will look agreeable, only when you think you succeeded, it returns to the same
old programing with much greater force. However, with every attempt of an aware parent the program “don’t spare the rod” became weaker and ability to stop it
grew stronger, until one day humanity went full steam ahead and tipped the scale of change.
Of course when the scale tips it goes all the way down to the other side before it returns to the middle. Now we are still down in the other side.
We have at least two generations of young people, who have no understanding of self-discipline and a generation of parents who have no confidence
in showing own children consequences for doing unacceptable; waste, harm, irreverence, greed... usual ego ploys.
The loss of understanding what discipline means is a result of not only a fear of becoming an abuser, but also a lack of trust in wisdom of children.
Not seeing that every child is a timeless being, who comes to this life with own path to walk, own plan for fulfillment, even own name, left parents convinced
that they are responsible only for the teaching children about endless aspects of the outside world.
Their responsibility for hearing voice of the child’s authentic inner world, at this point, drowned by mass of trivial information, is commonly left unfulfilled.
Without being heard by parents, those who suppose to get you, the voice of authentic child will become unrecognized, undifferentiated in his mind as well.
Left on mercy of ego programs, which are not too kind to the world of others and with a closer look never kind to self, a child will create pain and will waste
a lot of experiences before he arrives to authentic conclusions.
The remedy is a discipline of the ego (that is trying with all it’s might to waste human life), while staying loving and connected to the authentic of both -
you and the child.
And here we have two problems.
Parents see their missing competence in forms and measures of disciplining their children, but because they were also left on mercy of ego programs
and nobody taught them how to recognize a difference between programing of the computer, they will not trust themselves in their choices of discipline.
Second problem is that when they seek help from a professional, they inevitably end up with someone who doesn’t know either, because their competence is based
on an education by an institution, founded by ego to serve the ego. There is no University that I know of, that will teach psychotherapy I speak about, and practice.
Every academic that is vocal about it, and there are very few, risks to be ostracized and eventually fired, because the ego is in power in educational institutions.
It’s quack-academics out there. Promoting, funding and making a big deal out of repetitive, limited, uncreative, small-minded research is not by accident or habit.
It is intentional position of the ego in order to stay in charge. Promoting only those, who will do what they are told, do the same what others before them, laugh at,
criticize, and join in rejecting those who are authentically contributing in the evolution of humanity, is the ego’s way to hold on to the reins.
But what about parents?
Parents, first learn to hear your own authentic voice, it will give you have courage to be unpopular for a day and popular in many years to come.
Discipline that you will show and teach is a blueprint how to be in charge of own ego for the child’s whole life. Without it they will struggle to experience
and accomplish what they came here for. The authentic part of the child will be grateful.
May 3, 2015
After you hear “there is no cure”.
Over the last 20 years I helplessly watched friends physicians dying from “incurable” illnesses holding with all their minds to a paradigm that was failing them.
I could see that to some it felt unbelievable, and to some doubly awful.
They accepted the sentence that they are dying, because throughout their carriers the shoe was on the other foot.
They expected from their clients obedience to their verdicts and treatment decisions, knowing plain well that they can not have certainty about the cure,
nor trust in administered drugs.
with an open mind” Paracelsus. Also very few know that it would be enough to say "I am sorry I was not a healer that I said I was, I had no business to be an authority
on human healing nor take the power position and rewards that socially came with it” and they will be free to chose their healing path, instead of giving power
to someone else and follow doctor’s orders (who has no human right to order you).
You have trillions of conscious cells in your body, that like aware citizens do not want a foreign government to take over their country to defend them.
They want your free, powerful mind to govern their state. Look around, see what a devastation foreign governments created in occupied countries
under a disguise of liberation.
Nobody should die because they were told by someone when, and that they are dying. It is your decision. 
Here is a choice after you will hear “there is no cure”: first know that you need help from the universe not an another person, since they admitted that
they are powerless, after you gave them their chance, next ask the universe and all the helpers “up there”, who are not after your power to heal, but to strengthen 
your energy, and aid the healing processes.
Ask many times a day until the Universe above and below will hear your will, and guide your trillions of conscious citizens to your health.

May 1, 2015
Give the children their thinking time back.
When I was a child an outside world was simple and non-demanding. It left me alone to my inner world.
My mind had time to reflect.
My main occupation was to ponder.
My most common and remembered states of mind were questions, reflections, observations, that I knew nobody around would be able to discuss with me.
The world was not only simple, it was simplistic. 
I was longing to see the profound and engage in truth speaking and truth seeking exchange.
When I was a child an outside world was failing me, but it left me alone.
Now, sixty years later a child is born to an outside world that is not simple, but is far from profound!
It became the world of complicated deception.
By the time I was a teenager I had my own world view (that had a long list of questions I am still trying to answer), I had a grasp of human confusion, that I disagreed with,
and a sense of inner values, that nobody taught me. All acquired by reflection.
Now the outside world not only doesn’t leave a child alone to his inner world but attacks a young mind with a barrage of trivial engagements, that teach nothing.
Not a single life skill.
This outside world is demanding, aggressively competing for child’s attention with endless new choices of entertainment and mind games mimicking an occupation.
Video games, television, internet chatter and a demand for technology/computer skills became this new world of deception, that pretends to be real.
Realty shows that are designed to take your life away from living it, are changing modern living rooms into staring rooms.
The years of childhood are sold to invented world.
The free time that I spend growing up on thinking is now caught, killed and stuffed with virtual nonsense, before a child has a chance to frown and ponder.
By the time a child becomes a teenager the outside world is all what he’s got!  It’s time to give the children their thinking time back.

April 29, 2015
Laziness of mind.
I hear from mouths of leaders and gurus common comments that we are not evolving, becoming truthful and loving because we are lazy.
A judgment statement that "...if we only discipline ourselves... because it takes work, takes effort to make oneself loving...” is the very message
that produces followers, who keep following schools, disciplines, religions into hopelessness and powerlessness. 
All disciplines in the world will not increase your love level.
No babies and lovers will.
It takes an experience knowledge (not pass down in words) what is Love within and after you see it, it takes a decision if to reside as a living presence
in the realm of love in this lifetime.
And this decision we all made before we came here. We can change our minds, as the world changes, but it is free and effortless for those who know it.
Shaming and blaming is a trap. 
Because the knowledge and the decision what life you are choosing has nothing to do with laziness.
It is an advanced knowledge of one’s life plan that dictates choices.
Yes, for the majority of people it is just their unawareness of better choices that blocks them from better life, and for them are schools, disciplines, religions.
But an ultimate choice of the permanent move to residence in the realm of love it is the choice of your incarnation.
For those who stood facing it – it’s obvious.
To those who never saw it, the work, effort, disciplines, is a distraction to get them better food. Not Love. 

Regina, your comment that we are not loving because we are lazy is far from love and truth.
The statement “.... if we only discipline ourselves... because it takes work, takes effort to make oneself loving...” is the very message that produces followers, who keep following schools, disciplines, religions into hopelessness and powerlessness.
All disciplines in the world will not increase your love level.
No babies and lovers will.
It takes an experience knowledge (not pass down in words) what is Love within and after you see it, it takes a decision if to reside as a living presence in the realm of love in this lifetime.
And that decision we all made before we came here. We can change our minds, as the world changes, but it is free and effortless for those who know it.
Shaming and blaming is a trap.
Because the knowledge and the decision what size of love you are choosing has nothing to do with laziness.
It is an advanced knowledge of one’s life plan that dictates the choice.
Yes, for the majority of people it is just their unawareness of better choices that blocks them from better life, and for them are schools, disciplines, religions.
But an ultimate choice of the permanent move to residence in the realm of Love it is the choice of your incarnation.
For those who stood facing it – it’s obvious.
Those who haven't seen it all the disciplines, work, effort might give them a better food. Not Love.

- See more at: http://www.gaiamtv.com/video/unlocking-secrets-alchemy-steven-ross#comment-406601
April 27, 2015
Brain needs time
The human brain has it's speed of processing. Even though people's intelligence varies greatly from person to person, the speed of brain
varies between people only ever slightly. By the very fact that brain has to processes data from inside and outside of the body to give us a read
on of what's going on, it really doesn't give us a direct access to reality, but gives us only a read of our reality with a delay of processing about 1/10,000 of a second.
When we learn to rely on a processed by the brain grasp of reality, we forget about our ability to have a direct view of the life experiences.
We have no chance by sheer effort of the brain to bridge the gap and see reality the way our Authentic Identity (Ai) sees it, because the brain cannot jump in front of itself.
It goes as fast as it goes and you can sit in Zen for 50 years and end up with the same view, although you might become less disturbed by it.
All of the various meditation techniques practiced for the purpose of arriving to a state of enlightenment are useless,
unless one understands this very basic fact: you can’t see God’s reality when you are looking through your brain.

April 13, 2015
Long time ago...
EMANUEL SWEDENBORG, 1688 – 1772, Swedish scientist, philosopher, theologian, revelator, and mystic,
really genius and enlightened mind wrote in one of his books: “Divine Providence” :
1. The universe as a whole and in every detail was created out of divine love, by means of divine wisdom.
2. Divine love and wisdom radiate from the Lord as a single whole.
3. There is some image of this whole in everything that has been created.
4. It is the intent of divine providence that everything created, collectively and in every detail, should be this kind of whole,
and that if it is not, it should become one.
5. The good that love does is actually good only to the extent that it is united to the truth that wisdom perceives, and the
truth that wisdom perceives is actually true only to the extent that it is united to the good that love does.
6. If the good that love does is not united to the truth that wisdom perceives, it is not really good, but it may seem to be; and
if the truth that wisdom perceives is not united to the good that love does, it is not really true, but it may seem to be.
7. The Lord does not let anything remain divided. This means that things must be focused either on what is both good and
true or on what is both evil and false.
8. If something is focused on what is both good and true, then it is something; but if it is focused on what is both evil and false,
it is not anything at all.
9. The Lord’s divine providence works things out so that what is both evil and false promotes balance, evaluation, and purification,
which means that it promotes the union of what is good and true in others.
Just think about it...
March 30, 2015
Truth is not democratic.
A true wisdom teacher or a psychotherapist, which suppose to mean the same, can not be produced by a university education
or any other educational institution, for that matter.
Might not even be an accomplishment of one lifetime.
Meant as a complement pointing at my competence  I heard “in your training” it is not any training that made me competent - its an evolution stupid.
The claim that I am qualified to help the lost to find their access to Light, because I went to school for it, is a nonsense, yet, a university degree
(often just a college diploma) is an only requirement for professional standard in the “civilized” world.
Side note; civilized also means: easy to manage or control; well organized or ordered... by whom?
An illusion of competence, created by controlling institutions that can accept you as a member and give a licensee to practice in mental / spiritual helping profession,
based on a formal education is one of those fallacies that are the most destructive in health care.
Those who seek my guidance and are in the helping professions, know how poorly I think about cognitive-behavioral therapy (CBT), one of the most obvious “techniques”
supporting an illusion that “we produced a healer”.
I would hear the ego voices screaming at me! Nonsense, we want professions to be controlled, you are a quack! Well, I do have Master and PhD,
I just don’t want to be part of any college, an epiphany of incompetence, to give me an illusionary approval.
The truth does not become true by a vote of majority. Millions or opposing critics of a single voice of truth will not shift the truth to the millions. Truth is not democratic.

Postings are often a continuation of the previous thoughts.
February 19, 2015
Unpredictable doesn't mean Unreliable
Predictability comes from routines, habits, rigidity, sameness. Predictability is a stagnation of the mind, caused by social conditioning/programing
for the purpose of control of lives of citizens.
It is accomplished by instilling the fear of judgment of others and consequently a fear of social rejection.
Advancing the words like “ordinary” and “average” to a rank of superlative, allows millions of people to become a human filler, not an active ingredient of social evolution.
Inability to examine agreed upon ways of living, fueled by a desire to belong, to matter, and a fear of not fitting, only grows with age.
Glorified stories about mom and dad, told by 80 years olds, is to justify their life-long laziness of thought and lack of courage to be different,
that left their inherited conditioning unchallenged.
As if all was working so well, they carried on the same way. If it’s not broken, don’t fix it.
They also impose on children their stale, predictable modus vivendi with pride of superiority
and frown upon any sign of deviation from their predictable middle-of-the-herd position. 
They usually ruin their children’s lives, by denying them choices, experiences, individuality, creativity, the freedom to be different.
Reliability comes from an understanding and living by the universal values, that are based on truth in all, or at least in wide contexts.
Universal values are rooted in love and have nothing to do with social values and norms, because they represent an interest of an individual human,
not a strength of the cement that holds people glued together and dependent on handouts of rulers of the society.
Reliability is an earned by evolution (on own merit) a strength, a presence of the timeless being visible from the moment the child is born
and intuited by some parents way before they see the kicking baby.
Those who used their many lives to create own evolution are the contributors and creators of the evolution of humanity.
When people come to me for help I see if they are predictable or reliable. One basic test is that the reliable people understand universal values.
February 7, 2015
Freedom to be you.
Guiding people to their understanding is a balancing act on a narrow path between creating a dependency and following on one side,
and a wasteful, lengthy debates, usually ending is a rejection on the other. "Yay or Nay"
Everything is a truth on some level. It is a struggle to move from the ego level to authentic; a lower level to a higher one.
Why it’s so difficult to let the old beliefs go?
One of the many reasons, because it's hard to admit that we invested time and energy in holding to what we believed to be truth,
acted on it, and inevitably created pain to self and others. At best it feels stupid and wasteful.
When I point the difference between student’s present thinking and emoting to an option of a shift to a greater freedom, higher truth, only very few get it at once.
A bit more than few, especially if they’re are in pain, suspiciously examine my statements with a lot of questions.
And there is a difference between question that carries a possibility of own faulty logic and a question that indicates that the heels are dug in. 
A great majority of people come to me with the latter. Their quick answer "I disagree", without any examination of what I said, tells me that all what they want
is a validation that they are right and doing great. Surprise! Oh, they don’t like it.
Usually they never come back.
Well, I am too old for giving them time to get it. I don’t have much left to be slow and patient. At 40 it was fine, at 63 it’s not.
There is a percentage of people who stick to me because they want to learn to discern the truth from the level of timeless self and to ditch an illusion of truth from the ego level.
For them and for all those who have a teacher, guru, a therapist I will share my understanding of freedom from guru-ship.
When at a session we arrive to an understanding that the shift is happening, the student will experience a cheer from the trillions of citizens (cells of his body),
who are happy to know that they are getting a better government; the mind that runs their territory is shifting from darkness to light. What a joy!
This “aha” moment needs to be own. Now I have my truth, because I felt if. I know it, like I know that I am alive.
You can not ever answer to: how do you know? with ”because Yaga said it.”
There is no Yaga in that moment. Your new knowledge is exclusively yours, just ask your body. 
The opposite to that is a student whose citizens are cheering at the session, he sees the truth, but sooner or later he rejects the new awareness,
because he wants to be an authority over his life.
Only because he is afraid that he will become a follower, he would rather hold to the darkness than go to the light.
Never follow Yagas.
Follow only your truth when you know it. Let it to expand it to a grater context of application throughout life by learning.
Keep asking if you do not feel a cheer of your aware citizens yet.
Keep holding to a new truth fearlessly. It’s yours. Nobody, dead or alive, has the right to claim it, because you got it from them.
Truth is universal and belongs to all.
That’s why it bothers us so much when we hear about cult leaders, or any other leaders who ask people to cheer for their truth.
When we cheer for them we will not hear our own cheers for our own truth, and we will not become truthful to self in our own fecking mind.
January 15, 2015
New Year and Costa Rica!

Happy New Year!

My 2015 will be about the move to Costa Rica!
I hear: "I wish I could do that" or "Fantastic, lucky you! All the best, that's my dream some day..."
The whole life is our dream. We made it up!
"Some day" is today. Millions of people die with dreams never realized.
There was a story about a man, who was retiring after 45 years of work on the railroad. At his retirement party family asked him to give a speech.
He began with: "When I was 13 my dad died and I had to go to work... " and he went on about his first well paid job on the railroad,
and about the hard work he has to do on the cold days of Northern Ontario, and about camaraderie with coworkers,
and how much they enjoyed to rely on each other, and about many happy moments he experienced on his job.
But, at the end of the speech he paused and looking very sad, he told his family, that for all the years he kept a secret.
All of them were very curious and some a bit worried.
The man, after he sorted out his emotions, shared with his family, that in all those 45 years he wanted to go back to school to become an accountant.
Family was very surprised and sat quietly, but man's 6 years old grandson, unaffected, jumped in: "But Grandpa, now you can go to school
and become an accountant!"
"Oh, my dear boy, I am 58, by the time I finish my schooling I will be 64, that's not the time to start a carrier", he answered.
"Grandpa", said the boy "you will be 64 anyway!"
I will be 64 in October of this year and I will celebrate it in Costa Rica!
I am opening there a retreat place
and moving my center of wisdom studies.
It will be an international revolving and evolving community, where people can stay, rest, reflect and learn.

November 2, 2014
I am going to try. 
If you were looking for new posts on my website and wondering why there are none, here is why:
I want to post only about Ai, Authentic Identity and I am still writing about ego.
Perhaps it is useful in some future context, so I am not deleting it from my computer, but I decided to stop focusing on made up world of ego because it gives it energy.
Most of my posts are the results of sessions with my students.
All of them working on mapping their egos and unplugging energy from variety of characteristics that form their personalities,
which is the ego interpretation of authentic you viewing the world. When interpretations are extreme personality is in disorder.
To stay healthy you have to learn about your personal ego, then stop feeding it through addictions, emotions, excuses, negativities,
and finally increase the voice of authentic by following it’s directions, and learn to never dismiss it.  
There is not much one can write from Ai, since its voice is just an instant knowingness and an instant feeling. But I am going to try.
Without going through ego’s read of personal context, messages from Authentic Identity are very basic yes/no, stop/go.
If we would ad more words the messages would sound like cliché or dogma. But I am going to try.
October 3, 2014
Come to the kitchen.
Wherever I glance I see the hand of ego.
It meddles in all aspect of our lives and it is relentless in its attempts to dim the human light.
Since it can not deplete the energy, a mind of ego tries (with a lot of success) to convince us,
that we running out of energy and looks for the ways to create an invisible powerlessness.
It is not a conspiracy of one mind, or some few families... it is just  the darkness doing its job.
People who follow the destruction of ego usually are unaware, and if they are aware,
the ego blocks their way out by payoffs, often in pleasure, in power, in material benefits.
The lifting a veil of ego deception comes home today, right to the kitchen.
For years now the open-concept kitchen has been sold as the best.
Every new house should have it. In old houses walls have been knocked down and it’s increasingly rare to find a house
that doesn’t have kitchen open to another adjoining room. 
Closed kitchens were not only designed so the smell wouldn’t go through the house when cooking,
but to keep the energy of a nurturer, who prepares the meals, contained in that space.
Inevitably everybody would gather in the kitchen and feel cramped, cozy and happy.
Every space that repetitively holds the energy of a physical being will vibrate with that energy for some time.
Stronger the presence, higher the frequency, longer it lingers.
The open-concept kitchens, hits two targets with one shot.
The idea comes from public spaces that if they are open appear to be more impressive, more imposing.
That means you feel small in your own house. Also your energy in a large space is less significant,
dissipates faster, doesn’t stay locked to great you when you come home.
My conclusion, keep your kitchen closed.

September 30, 2014

Take care of your body.

Right after you wake up your body in the morning, you don’t look like you. Close, but not exactly.
From being a pile of cells humming with life to being an organized identity, run by authentic you,
sometimes it is an hour or so, that you don’t look like you.
Older your body is, longer it takes to represent you.
Not because you don’t accept aging, it’s just your body takes time to listen to you and match your being.
You represent timeless you and your body represents the life itself.
With changing, aging, dying, your body is the life that can run without you.
Know that every cell in your body is a conscious being that knows the life that hums in it.
Don’t try to overpower it with an ownership, it does nothing good to the body.
Understand it, support it, take care of it, and not by whipping it to shape with pride, or pruning it from shame,
but by hearing it and staying grateful.
Grateful, because the trillions of conscious living cells agreed in unison to give a confused entity a one more chance to experience better life.
September 26, 2014

Who are they?

An expression “they said that...”, often meets a criticism: “Who are they?”
The answer to this, from my perspective is very simple.
You heard it many times, but maybe never in this context.
Ego is them and it.
Ai (Authentic Identity) is always I
In the world of Ai we are I and others are I. We are all individual (in-division) parts of the same mind of Authentic.
Each of us is a one cell of an endless body and we are that body.
In the world of Ai we are ONE.
There is no separation.
In the world of Ego, on the other hand... all is separated from I and all is divided into variety of them.
In the world of Ego, there are divisive ideas, like patriotism, loyalty, pride of what’s mine, and a rejection of theirs.
Or an opposite, a rejection of what's mine and a desire of what’s theirs.
And there is the answer:
Who are they? The Ego
September 21, 2014
If we would decide never to serve a personal and social ego,
not to work for the collective ego,
not to promote it in any direct way, 
not to contribute in programing of personal and social ego,
what work would be left in your society? What work would you do?
September 20, 2014
The time from a perspective of programs and programmers (the mind of ego), is an unquestionable master.
The illusion that you live in an unchangeable, constant measure of time is one of the main lies of the ego world, and most of you - bought it.
It is designed and propelled to make you powerless and scared of time.
“I am of running out of time”, “Time is up”, “I raced against time”, “time flies”, “I don't have time to catch my breath”, “pressed for time” and so on....
Why do you do it? Is it lack of knowledge or simply focusing on mundane and rarely reflecting on a big picture, because you don’t have time?
The time is a provider – it serves you. You are in charge of it.
By making decisions what you expect from it and what you decide to put in the time you here on Earth.
If you decide that it is important for you to drive from Toronto to North Bay in 1h.30min. without speeding, the time will slow down
and you will arrive unsurprised an hour and half after you left.  
If any part of your decision is from the ego, it won’t work. It has to be all for “the highest good”.
That’s why it is so important to learn the difference between authentic you and your programs, and you can not learn that from a book, a lecture, a movie
because your ego will hide from you and lie that you are all authentic. For that you need someone like me, who knows the deference,
has courage and commitment to call you on it peacefully, truthfully and completely, without any part of it swept under the rug,
no matter how your ego will kick and scream.
If you know another person like that, ask them for an ongoing guidance, and of course (!) I would love to meet him/her.
 September 1, 2014
If you are checking my postings for a new ideas you will have to wait a bit longer. It is still summer in my part of the world and I am in the place,
where watching ducks to land on the lake is a joy of the day. 
Although, I have one trivial idea of today...
let's encourage everyone that as of 1st of September 2014 all artists, performing and not, will be called “gold collar workers”.
Blue and white collar division makes artists invisible and unimportant.
As if the world we live in was the world without creativity and magic. And if you watch ducks on the lake – you know it’s nothing else here, but magic.

August 3, 2014

You can do it.

There is no debate that our incarnated reality has two realms; a realm of authentic and the realm of ego.
If you picture the two realms, as two lands, you will end up with two kinds of citizens on this planet.
Those who identify themselves through the ego and those who know that they are timeless.
For now, most of the people forgot about their authentic timeless self Ai and do not live in the reality designed by it, they live in the land of ego.
When people search for a better state of mind, a better life, initially they are the tourists in the land of the authentic.
They visit, they talk about it, show pictures and then go back to living by the law of the land of ego.
The second kind are those who apply for a status of a resident, hoping for a citizenship in the land of timeless self.
They search, they visit they hold on to ideas, but they still live in their past paradigm. They do not do the whole walk.
Like Canadians of the first generation, who in their hearts still live in their country of their origin, with customs, language, culture and all.
And the third kind are those who always knew that the do not belong to the land of ego. (Hence the encounters of the third kind... kidding!)
They were appalled by the ego’s ignorance and arrogance from the beginning. My memories of that outrage go back when I was 5 – 6 years old.
They cannot do harm, they are selfless, creative, live in an abundance and are endless givers. Their minds and hearts are open.
Does that mean that if you are not born a citizen of the land of authentic you cannot become naturalized citizen?
No, I believe you can do it all in a one lifetime. I just never have met one.
I am here to help you to do it.
Keep in mind that the apparent division is about a level of saturation of the ego driven life choices.
Underneath we are all one. Yet we chose to live or not to live as one.
The discrimination against citizens of a different kind is only in the mind of the ego.
The fear and rejection is only in the mind of the ego.
Authentic is never bothered by it, although what ego choses to live through is often painful to watch.
July 22, 2014

Seeing past.

An initial observation of our physical reality is always happening on the level of Ai (Authentic Identity).
The timeless You sees and understands reality in all of its details and complexity. 
The ego, the programs of your computer, is like an envious girlfriend.
It takes a grasp of your observation with a delay of about 1/10 000 of a second, and it steps forward to take over.
At first it sorts out observed reality into three piles: “this is good” “this is bad’, or “this is neutral“.
The last one is often labeled in this part of the world as “I don't care” and by that it becomes negative, not worthy of noticing, rather than neutral.
After sorting the data, the ego takes a position towards the reality by either being for it , against it or “I don't care”, relating to its own interest.
Depending how important the perceived reality is to the ego, it might choose to trigger emotions, like a crave, a desire - a pull towards,
or a repulsion - anger, frustration, avoidance.
Positive emotions create addictions, negative are the source of the rest of human misery.
The Art of Living lies in understanding the read of the ego and the emotional effects of it are not your directives in life decisions or behaviors.
Having a full life in a society is not about preventing the ego’s interpretation of reality, nor is it to let the ego turn reality into emotions,
rather a full life entails one seeing past and living independently from the ego’s push and pull.
The secret of a happy state of mind is not to be sucked into the ego’s reality, but to live by the timeless law of love and joy.
July 20, 2014

Does ego...

...always want to have a last word and the first dance?
July 19, 2014


“The greatest glory in living lies not in never falling, but in rising every time you fall” - Nelson Mandela.
I would say there is not always the greatest glory. Bill Clinton is a one example.
Lets skip the glory concept, it is just life.
If it is lived as designed by the timeless you, it needs to be lived with the courage.
The steps that do not follow traditions, religions, social and familial directives (which keep you locked if not enslaved), will lead you to experiences,
where you will be amazed by your own power and abilities.
Where your courage to lead life, that at times makes no sense even to you, will serve as an example to many, who were taught to be afraid.
Where your choices based on the trust in intelligence and support of the Universe will become an inspiration to those,
who don’t have a courage to step out of their place in the middle of the pack.
Remember, if your life becomes a proof of the presence of the intelligence and support of the Universe, the proof is only good for you.
Discourage others to settle for knowing and believing in your proof. It is a trap for both; you and them. That’s how all religions started.
People settled for someone else’s experiences, even though they suppose to do the same or even better.
They said “Nah, I will sit in a pew and listen to somebody else’s amazing life – over and over again, that will be enough for me”.
If you are leading an amazing life, you better add to it a work of a teacher who guides others to their own courageous experiences.
Then fly besides them for a bit (no judgment how long!), like papa eagle, they all will learn to fly, whenever they are ready.
There is nothing more toxic in the parenting your children than replacing their innate courage and trust with a fear and predictability.
You will live a very small life, when you give in to the fear of the unknown.
July 09, 2014

One step deeper in deception.

Now, about the phenomenon of the new media technologies and why they are so addictive?
My take is based on the understanding that humanity an mass is moving deeper and deeper in the ego reality.
The ego, from the beginning, is feeding human minds with a read of reality (limited by the speed of brain) with the 1/10 000 of a second delay,
thus preventing people from seeing life experiences directly as they are, but rather as the ego reads it.
Those who seek enlightenment want to eliminate that obstacle.
If all people would see the life as it is, all humans would be enlightened and ego wouldn’t exist.
The new media technologies represent a whole new, one step deeper in deception, the trick of the ego – it is a read of a read of the life experiences!
How brilliant is that!
Let’s take them even further from creating and contributing in life.
Let’s convince them that the - made up world of technological interpretations - of the made up world of the ego read of life - is better than the life itself!
And let’s tell them that they HAVE to slave on a hated job - to earn money - to buy the technology - to loose the point of living completely  - and then let’s sell them
lots of drugs to muffle the voice of longing for the meaning.
O, it can get worse before humanity will wake up.

July 08, 2014

The sick.

My sociologist daughter asked me to watch a TED conference video presentation, and let her know what I think about the subject.
The woman spoke about new media technologies that they are just like any other drug.  She showed a picture of her teenage daughter with two visiting girl friends, 
all three with heads down, texting or web surfing on their cellphones. She commented on the picture, that her daughter sleeps with the phone and so does she.
Then she listed the consequences of the addiction to the new media technologies and appealed to the public to be aware, and to change.
Oh, it turned out she was a psychologist with counseling practice. 
So I wrote to my daughter:
Observing a phenomenon, noting the consequences, predicting the possible outcomes, appealing for changes to those who are the cause or the part of the phenomenon,
and doing very little in own life to be the change is totally ineffective if not disturbing. The woman sleeps with her cellphone! 
I can only be effective if I change.
Inspiring if I walk the walk.
And interesting when I am ahead not in the middle of the pile of social turd.
Her message is: "I am sick, you're sick, let's change, you first"
July 07, 2014
The permanent joy.
Whatever is a piece of the destructive programing of the human mind that you understand and you want to offer it to help others,
if it is truthful - it can contribute in their self-knowledge.
Of course, you have to include a qualifier that this is your understanding, in your context of only a piece of a huge puzzle.
With that discourage your audience from becoming the seekers of the endless many pieces.
Encourage them to become seekers of the understanding of self that has no pieces.
What is not helpful is the selling your ideas as the most important, and a formula that will solve all human problems in the field of your expertise.
I must say it is a common American guru approach, and we all know it. Read this, take this workshop, listen to this, eat this, do this,
and you will be happy, rich, healthy, slim, also tall and good looking!
Unfortunately the desired and admired, “ego confidence syndrome” a confidence with little to show for, seeped from the American social life,
to the helping professions.
An author and the reader be aware; the high that you figured out a tiny part of life doesn’t last.
The permanent joy resides in the timeless you and the shift from living by the ego programs to experiencing life as an authentic mind
is not based on having a piece of a puzzle.
It will only puzzle you.
The shift can happen when you will understand and know and that it’s you who created your own experiences
of the life’s endless many pieces.
The real helping / giving resides in the presence of the authentic, loving mind in the direct contact with you,
when you need help to sort out your confusion.
Only then you will see that we are all ONE.

July 04, 2014
Let the life to live by itself in you.
While driving I usually listen to the CBC radio. This time, the host Anna Maria Tremonti in “The Current” interviewed veterinary oncologist Sarah Boston.
The drive was short, so I heard only some part of the conversation. to get the rest of the story I researched on the web and found out that:
“Sarah Boston looks at cancer treatment in both the human and animal worlds in her new book, “Lucky Dog: How Being a Veterinarian Saved My Life””.
During her career of diagnosing lumps on animals, she discovered a lump on her own neck. But of course!
She went to have it checked and the results were negative. Of course!
She insisted... and insisted... and insisted... because “she knew she had a cancer”, she was the specialist after all.
Finally the results were positive!
But of course!
Then the story went on how being a veterinary oncologist saved her life, because she knew the cancer symptoms and pushed for diagnosis and the treatment,
and how untrained people are worse off, because they wouldn't know the symptoms and be insistent for the "right" diagnosis.
Instead of this huge promotion of the ego drama, I long to see in my lifetime, a wide spread understanding of the truth behind such a story.
I am sure the majority of people reading my blog know it, to be clear I will summarize in five points.
1. The ego program of Sarah Boston was running expectations of getting cancer. She looked at lumps all day. What you hold in your mind - you create.
2. She had in the her mind a lump and having a cancer, but she had no cancer. No, the first diagnosis were not wrong, she had no cancer.
3. She insisted until she was correct. The diagnosis showed cancer.
4. She believed she will be “cured”, because she saw her own results of cutting lumps out of animals for good.
5. Then she wrote the ego promotion book for the public ego to be fed one more hipping spoon of crap.
The ego will be upset and attack me here (well, the ego doesn’t come to my blog) because the ego wants you to believe in the made up world of confusion,
diseases, suffering, emotional drama, lack of intelligible patterns...
Ego sais– that’s life, and it’s not.
Life is intelligent, harmonious, clear minded, and many other brilliant things.
The longest living people are those, who allow the life to be lived in them by itself. They observe it, understand it, don’t mess it up by any “improvements” and love it.
Unfortunately, dear Anna Maria Tremonti, most people’s efforts go into the digging themselves deeper and deeper in the paradigm of the collective deception.
This story describes the basic paradigm, which educated, yet unaware people live by. 
A collective narcolepsy induced by the ego’s aversion to the higher human truth. 
June 25, 2014
We are the mind.

We are the mind that split itself to navigate endless possibilities of experiencing energy, especially the one that we call - life.
To guide people, to work with people’s stories, is like having a many parallel lives to understand, and to draw conclusions from.
The same with the raising children. A great opportunity to be the mind that experiences life from another perspective.
How about the caring for animals? Again it’s a chance to experience life, this time from a perspective of other expressions.
Also the caring for a plant, a garden, a forest, a field of crops, anything that requires care is a life that is happening for us too.
We are the one mind that suppose to be mindful. We are the love that suppose to be loving.
When and how did we lose it? The devastation, the slaughter, the destruction – where did that come from?
I am going to contemplate it and open to the Universe for the answers, they always come if I stick to my wanting to know.
There are a lot of theories where did the ego/programs got the virus from, but none, that I heard or read about, was convincing.
Mainly, because they do not have an implied solution, which means that they do not carry the truth.
The real understanding of a problem contains a direction to the solution of the problem.
June 16, 2014
Science figured out nature?

A belief that the science figured out nature, shapes the minds of a good majority of educated people.
The well known fact, that all of the listed below dogmas fall apart under a scrutiny of the free thinking,
non-dogmatic scientists, still escapes the main stream education.
Here are ten dogmas that shape main stream scientific minds, but do not hold much of truth,
presented by biologist Dr Rupert Sheldrake in his dialogues with Dr Andrew Weil, 2012:
1. Nature is mechanical, we are all lumbering robots.
2. Matter is unconscious. All matter, animated and not, is unconscious.
3. Total amount of matter and energy in the universe is constant.
4. Laws of nature are fixed.
5. Nature is purposeless. Nature has no point to it.
6. Biological inheritance is material.
7. Memories are stored as material traces in the brain.
8. Minds are confined to the inside of the brains.
9. Mind, since is inside of the brain, can not have an effect in the distance.
10. Mechanistic medicine is the only one that works.
All false.
To hear more on science dogmas: 
June 15, 2014
Become the abundance.
There are two integrous / authentic reasons to the giving.
1. To learn that you live in an abundance.
2. To take part in the exchange of energy where the abundance meets gratefulness.
When you look for any external rewards (Do the like me? Did I impress them? Will they be reciprocal? What will they give me back?),
you will not stay present and aware and most likely you will miss much of the joy, and the energetic benefit of the exchange.
The learning that you live in an abundance will continue, without ever feeling the peace that comes from it.
Somebody asked me: “why would you need to be a giver when you already learned that you live in an abundance?”
It is not for the energetic, or any other benefit. It is because after you learned that live in an abundance you become the abundance.

 June 14, 2014
Where the words came from.
I am posting the emails exchanged with “Pam” over the last year and in the first June letter she sent me a quote:
A man said to the Buddha, “I want Happiness.”
Buddha said, first remove “I”, that’s ego,
then remove “want”, that’s desire.
See now you are left with only Happiness.
I answered: TRUE.
It is a true statement, but it is not the Buddha quote.
Now, would it really matter to you if the words came from Buddha or someone else, when the energy of the thought is strengthening?
If it would, there is a website where you can find if the quotes are real or not Buddha quotes.
If the words carry an energy that liberates you from any entrapment of the ego mind, take it, keep it in your mind and use it for good.
It is only important where they came from if you can not feel the strengthening effect of its meaning.
June 12, 2014
The body image.
In today’s session I asked one of my students, what would you change in your body?
She brought up that time to time, in the last few month, when she walks in, I comment on her looks: “you look more and more like you”.
And she agreed. More and more, she lives her life with a sense of direction, a purpose and the meaning.
She feels that she is fitting her body well, and she doesn’t have a sense that anything is off.
She would change nothing, maybe to be a bit taller.
Although if I had ask her what would you change in your body 5 years ago, the answer would be - a lot!
She was somebody else on the pictures from that time. Not only she looks unattractive in her opinion, she looks like a different woman.
So the problem is:
If we design our lives and the choice of the body comes with the design accordingly - for the optimal experiences, when we don’t live lives as intended,
we would have a difficulty to accept the body, because it would appear to us, as unsuitable for the new occasion.
Now, how many people do you know that are living their lives, with a clear awareness, accordingly to their intended purpose?
Not many?
There you have it! How can you enjoy your body if you don’t know what a life path it’s designed for?
June 9, 2014
The postings in the Summer will come with the rain...
Check the weather!
The warm season in Ontario is too short to sit in the office and write every day.
June 8, 2014
The net of habit.
For many years I know a dramaturge (play writer), whose plays are dark, filled with the dirt, pain and the ego drama (hence the dramaturge).
His writing is brilliant, but the themes of plays are horrific. His health is deteriorating, his mind is troubled and the social setting looks taxing.
Of course as a friend I have no position to induce a change, although god help me, I tried.
When I ask the dramaturge why don’t you write about goodness, beauty, joy? He said he wouldn’t know what to write.
Side note: Friends are way more unhealthy than clients, because friends don’t ask for word of guidance.
If they do, it is just to strike a conversation and when that’s done, it’s gone. Never to think about it. Never use it to create a change.
How do I know that? They would come for more.
How is it that so very few art pieces come from the authentic, the light and love and so many from the ego, the darkness and destruction?
How come the movies and all the art are most popular when they carry a pain and horror of the dark side of the ego?
Is this by a design?
Is the ego virus trying to attract you to the darkness so you can be stuck there and create darkness in your life?
“What you hold in mind” sort of thing.
Or the net of habit holds an imagination safe from falling into trust, where creativity is bottomless and boundless?
June 3 - 7, 2014
June 2, 2014
A climb up hill to see the sights.
From my window I saw in a distance a car climbing a hill and I connected with the state of anticipation, when we drive uphill.
I don’t know if the driver was in that state and I don’t know what exactly he saw when he was up there, even though I know that road quite well. 
That’s not the point.
The wonder what’s on the other side with a hope of having a great view of an amazing landscape is the point.
Perhaps it represents the original state of our beings.
Space and freedom.
View of choice with no limits.
Never have met anyone, who wouldn’t admire and feel a joy when standing on a hill, or better a mountain with a vast view.
Find a hill this weekend and stand there and stare.
“What is this life if, full of care, we have no time to stand and stare” William Henry Davies
June 1, 2014
More on SPS and children.
Here is a first comment I added to a score email and sent to a SPS questionnaire respondent:
Attn. Reflect on your position in the society as a bread winner. Perhaps you are operating in a survival mode rather than a creative one.
To my delight this person answered to my comment:
Thank you, Yaga.
“ ... Your comment is quite perceptive.  I am somewhat in a survival mode given the disruptions we are facing as we go through this period of the shifting consciousness. 
I do still feel my responsibilities as bread winner to provide for my children and grandchildren even at this stage in my life. They do not have the same financial opportunities that I enjoyed.”
This answer is representative of a position where the giving people find themselves to be, this days, in the relationships with their adult children.
I want to share with you two messages of my support of their giving and facilitating a shift.
1. The difference between having children under the age of independence (until the finish last step of formal education and are employed) and grown up children,
is that the first is your responsibility and the second is your choice.
If you chose to share your funds with your children it is out of generosity and care. It is a choice and as such it is not a responsibility and a burden.
And your children must know that.
2. When you chose giving you will always have the resources replenished and you will live in abundance.
When you look at it as a responsibility, where you have none, you will feel burden and feel shortage.
Keep in mind that the generation of your children and grandchildren have an opportunity to be creative and less focused on material, because of the earnings
and the providing of the parents like you.
It liberates their energy to become the shift of consciousness where the importance of love, care for environment and each other, kindness, togetherness, art
and many authentic expressions replace the material  world of ego.
Each generation had a job to do and you do yours.
When you provide a base for your children, as long as they don’t look at it with criticism and you do not worry about their future and want them
to have what you had – all is well.
Keep sharing, keep giving, you will always live in abundance.

May 31, 2014
SPS questionnaire.
When I receive an email with the answers to SPS questionnaire, (6th page on my links list) I experience a curiosity of a child who holds a wrapped present.
Until recently I answered to an each submitted questionnaire with the score and the general statistics of scoring. 
The lowest score you can have on SPS scale is 164 - Living in the ego world. Draining universal energy (I don’t think this mind will be looking at my  website).
The highest score you can score on SPS scale is 367.5 - Living in the world of Authentic Identity. Generating energy. Being a universal asset, not a liability.

Out of 86 submitted, filled questionnaires my readers average is 301. I really like that.
Because SPS assesses 3 dimensions: spiritual, social and personal, I decided recently not only to give a score, but also to include a brief comment
of what dimensions need an attention, a reflection, an improvement.
Here are two recent examples:
Attn.: Your perception of the spiritual truths is much higher than your understanding of the human world; social and personal.
You can increase your social intuition by trusting self as a higher authority than the “common beliefs” dictate.
Perhaps you didn’t review lately your options on the humanity or perhaps it’s not that important to you.
However, your experiences will reflect what you hold in mind and a betterment of the interpersonal life,
begins with increasing of the love and truth factor (the energy frequency) in your opinions about the human world.
Attn.: stabilize your values and image of the world by trusting self as a higher being.
Ask every day for the experiences to support that higher being / Authentic identity.
The feedback and words of the encouragement might not be much of a gift to one person, but when we focus on the changes, growth, evolution towards a higher truth,
a brighter light, a greater love, we are together making a difference.
I encourage you to fill up the SPS questionnaire to shift the own focus and to contribute, even if you have done so previously.
May 28, 2014
Gardening time.
You have to wait for my posting until all vegies are sown.
May 27, 2014
"Letting go of guilt and fear".
One of the common fazes in many publications: self-help, psychology textbooks, spiritual guidance or general health advises,
is to “let go of guilt and fear”, indicating that it is as simple as putting your winter coat away.
Guilt is a permanent state of the ego. I am OK is only in the authentic you.
When it’s written: “let go of guilt and fear”, read: “let go of ego”.
Why would you want a life without ego?
Why would you buy a computer and erase all the software?
I was encouraged 35 years ago, by one of my teachers to really commit to Zen Buddhism and its meditations, because he could see
I would become inevitably enlightened, while he thought, sadly about himself that he will not accomplish “the awakening” in this lifetime,
in spite of his great desire (and he didn’t – not in spite, but because of his great desire).
I remember thinking with a sense of absurdity about such a plan.
Life is to be lived and the light within you, the awareness, is to know your position in the world and the path you are walking on.
Guilt and fear will stay.
Just understand it, know its appropriateness and the right measure, then transcend it with the self-forgiveness and reassurance.
May 26, 2014
The helpers, who want to be rewarded.
All the do-gooders, whose intentions are to build their own great social image, or even to earn a place in heaven, are motivated by the ego.
The helpers, who want to be rewarded by loyalty and admiration are motivated by the ego. The governments that help underprivileged regions
only to build a military base there later are of course motivated by the ego.
The ego is only interested in itself, and if there is any interest in others it is to use the relationship for some self-serving purpose.
And I know what you may be thinking. You can say "but they still do some sort of good," and yes, they do. The ego can build a house
and serve soup in a soup kitchen, but while doing so, it builds and serves the ego. If humanity wants to evolve spiritually,
this very concept needs to be understood. 

May 25, 2014
To have time for everything.
The work for money, the money for spending, the spending to pass time
and the time used on taking care of the stuff you spent the money on.
No wonder that people constantly run out of time. No time - no life.
The life that we intended, is rarely the life lived.
The emptiness or drudgery of work sets the mind on the future; “I will suffer through this but I will do things what I like after”.
The “after” comes and the mind that suffered wants to be rewarded now, but it is just a conditioned view what’s rewarding.
I will buy myself this... I will eat this... I will do this...
Did any of “this” come to you as your own idea and an understanding what brings you a real joy?
Or you were told that “this”suppose to be fun?
When you are looking into the future for your happiness and in this moment very little represents it, the time will run really fast.
The complains about having no time to do what we love, time is speeding, and the life seems to be so short, needs to end,
and the learning to have time for everything what we truly love must began. You can figure out how.
May 24, 2014
The ignorance is not bliss.
The greater perspective of the view on life – the lesser attachment.
The lesser attachment – the grater appreciation of life.
Then the ignorance is not bliss.
May 23, 2014
 Let all the cells of your body to listen.
All actions born from the ego state of mind will bring conflict.
Some inner, some outer, most both.
Choices from your authentic mind do not create alternatives. They are obvious, singular, come from unity, oneness and the highest good. 
When you start considering options and possibilities you are moving your future to an area where the light is not so bright,
(or even “where the light doesn’t shine”).
If you ask:
- is this for the highest good?
The answer is immediate and clear.
When you have no indication of what’s the answer you have to quiet your body.
Shshshsh....let all the cells to listen. The universe out there wants to communicate to the universe in here.
Now you will hear it.

May 22, 2014
Declare yourself ready.
When I write my posts about parenting, an importance of gender identity, integrity of intentions in attracting a partner,
it’s not like I am talking on the edge of unthinkable.
However, not that many people reflect on their lives regularly, review their beliefs to broaden the context of their truths and then strive to live by it.
When you ask: “Why don’t you think about it?”
Usually you will hear:  “Busy”.
I think people just don’t know where to begin, whom to trust, how to go about the learning.
“Should I ask friends? They don’t know either. We end up talking about the same old stuff, from the same, well debated points of view.”
We stay the same, until hardship comes.
The best way you will learn without pain is by becoming interested and declaring yourself ready. Teacher will come.
May 21, 2014
The cluster wisdom.
Intelligence is not a cleverness of the ego programs.
Measurements of intelligence in the standard IQ testing does not recognize, nor understands a difference between the intelligence of the authentic mind
and a cleverness of the ego programs.
This is yet another example of the cluster wisdom, mixing a local, also called common wisdom, with the timeless wisdom.
To some degree it is grouping a truth with an untruth, although in the own context all is truth. Broaden the context, you will lose a lot of “small potatoes”.
Most of truths are restricted to a particular conditions (“small potatoes”, narrow context) and will not hold it’s substance when you try to apply it
in the world of all conditions and circumstances.
In the context of “allness” nothing is true. All is an illusion.
So, why are we are looking for truth?
I suspect we want to live in the greatest context. We want to be wise, not only clever.
May 20, 2014
Once a seeker, always a seeker.
Time to time this question popes to the minds of seekers: 
Why am I creating own experiences, making choices, striving to generate and leave the light in a darkness?
Once you asked, there are always more questions:
Is my pretending to be something describable convincing to me?
What is my point of being here?
Why did I become the life?
Once a seeker, always a seeker.
May 19, 2014
Five aspects of highly aware people:
1. By intentions and abilities managing or altering the time flow in order to be always on time.
2. Searching for the knowledge higher than data / trivia.
3. Valuing the the life in all aspects; for living is to learn.
4. Walking the middle road to save time and to enjoy the balance.  
5. Keeping open, feeling safe and living unbounded by the physical world. 
Are those your manifested aspects in some percentage?
May 18, 2014
Coaching and nurturing.

Parental coaching brings in children ambitions and the desires to accomplish what they intended in life.
The nurturing gives them trust, strength and endurance to do it.
The coach, the father represents an outside world, with that he teaches the children to function well in the world of ego.
By his own examples and sharing his understanding, he also gives his children lessons on how to deal with their own egos.
Coaching is an act of giving to a child of what's needed to function well in the outside word.
Mother represents the inner world and through the nurturing she teaches children to understand the voice of their Authentic being,
necessary to hear for creating the life as the child intended.
Both, the coaching and the nurturing can be done by one parent it the second one is absent (I did it), or by both parents according to the gender.
If the gender jobs are reversed, children either end up with a huge amount of ambitions and no strength to go anywhere (both parents coaching,
mother acting, father expected to do it), or no ambitions and lackadaisical attitude towards life (both parents nurturing - father acting, mother expected to do it).
Both coaching and nurturing must be rooted in love and authenticity.
Everything what we do, can be done from the ego state of mind by behaving “as if we feel it”, “fake it until you make it”, “play a role”, etc.
When parenting is done from the ego it is always recognized by children as unauthentic, although not always children understand
that it is the very reason why they don’t trust the words of parents and feel distant to them.
If parenting is done from the position of the ego it does more harm than good.
Because the coaching by an example - being a role model, coaching through the acts of giving, the nurturing and teaching
children to understand their inner voice, can be done properly only from a position of the authentic you, if you have children,
better start the work on your understanding of the two voices inside you.

Again, do not look at my words from a defensive concept of a discrimination, human rights, femininity and masculinity,
and all that ego fight for a better spot at the trough.
When you live from the Authentic your gender is never a determent to a fulfillment in life, it is an opportunity.
Your gender is your choice for the best conditions to experience life to love and to learn.

May 17, 2014
If you are continually shocked by a pathetically negative figures in our political arena this post is to calm your outrage.
Political elections in the democratic countries, like Canada, are based on competition, which, unlike in sports,
doesn’t mean “let the best man win”.
Results are based on a negative selection, which guarantees that the most ego driven, ruthless candidate wins.
“Let the worst man win”.
Examples are everywhere, countless.
When a candidate aims to “beat other candidates” which includes disvaluing, diminishing, dispowering the others,
it means exactly that - beating and winning.
Those are not some metaphors. Those are the ego terms, representing the ego world.
Do you really think that a good person, striving to living authentically would be a part of that world?
Ego competes, Authentic cooperates.
Elections that are based on a competition call for the biggest egos in town.
You can not expect truth and goodness when you sent the dogs to fight.
So why do you think that the one who wins will be nice to you?
May 16, 2014
In the beginning was the courage...
If you want to be you, you have to have the courage to stand alone a put up with a certain alienation.
If you want to be you, you will have to learn not to follow, to understand your own path, and face an inevitable rejection.
The obedient, conforming clones of a citizen - won’t like you.
If you are experiencing this already – great!
You are walking your path, and the change you are waiting for, began already within you.
I wish you the courage with every step!
May 15, 2014
The time will run all the same if you have money or not. 
Money doesn’t save you time – it can give you an opportunity to spend it differently, but the time runs all the same if you have money or not.
To spent time and energy (two dimensions measuring a lifespan) earning money, working at an undesirable job so you can put savings aside
and wait for life to begin after retirement, is the most unacceptable, yet equally common concepts that adults in North America live by.
If you were not fulfilled, while working you will not learn to find anything meaningful in passing or killing time on your retirement.
Time is to be lived, not to be killed!
And lived as you intended not as you got manipulated to believe.
Unless you have great parents, no other agent represents your interests, but you. Learn why you are here and fulfill your script.
No one comes here with a script which sais: “I will make a few bucks!”
The time will run all the same if you have money or not. Use it for good. Money will follow.
May 14, 2014
Aim for what’s true.
I never have met a couple, who would be taking another being as completely as love dictates.
To Love is to become an Explorer of somebody else's universe.
To be loved is to reflect on own life and share it with another, who is not only interested, but also inspired by your reflection.
Do not settle in life, and do not settle in the primary relationship.
Compromise is about agreeing who does laundry and who is writing New Years cards, not who will be your partner.
Aim for what’s true, you will become true, and you will stay true.
May 13, 2014

Equally doesn’t mean the same.
Can man and woman nurture equally?
Do they nurture differently?
Equally doesn’t mean the same. I love my three children equally, but I feel the love for each of them differently.
When I write about the differences between man and a woman I do not produce a division, I observe a division of incarnation.
I describe what I observe, sometimes all too obvious and yet not known to a non-discerning minds. 
I point at the possible reasons for your choice to be born in your gender, because it was your choice! That’s a fact.
There are specificities, possibilities, obligations, experiences and growth/wisdom opportunities different for each gender.
And of course a huge amount of opportunities that are here, regardless of the gender, to chose from.
Those who take an offense to my write up about the differences do not understand their choice to be born in your gender
and the gender bound opportunities to evolve in this lifetime.
If it is detrimental to your evolution – transcend it. If it is beneficial – milk it! No pun intended.

May 12, 2014
Five habits of highly unaware people:
1. Consistently late.
2. Following the “the others” not knowing why?
3. Valuing the money / material goods above everything else.
4. Tendency to extremes, like being gullible or skeptical - everything or nothing.   
5. Pretending to know, faking competence.
Do you need to stay away from people like that? Where would you go?
May 11, 2014
The thought that counts
Uncovering the hidden messages of the ego in common beliefs, echoed by common proverbs and sayings,
then rewriting it accordingly to the authentic is one of my basic cleaning jobs for the people who seek my guidance.  
Today’s “mopping” is based on a young man’s story about his effort to do something nice for his mother on mother’s day.
He had a good idea, but he admitted that he botched the job, then he concluded the story with: “Oh well, it’s the thought that counts”.
The thought to do it is just a beginning.
To be followed by:
The learning how to do it.
Preparing all what’s needed to complete it.
Doing it is upmost thoughtfulness and care.
Presenting it and offering it with joy of an accomplished task.
That’s what counts.
The thought doesn’t, when nothing else follows. It is even offensive and draining if you had a thought and did very little after.
May 10, 2014
Perception of ego is limited is divisive.
Ego has a limited perspective on life and produces limited thoughts. Action born out of a limited thought breads conflict.
Perception of Authentic you is complete and unlimited, that’s why it does not create separateness, it stays in all-ness.
Perception of ego is limited is divisive. Ego uses thoughts and the very nature of thought is divisive.
Thought gives an illusion of separateness.
Authentic you does not reside in time. Thought needs time, without time there is no thought.
Authentic you does not use thoughts spread in time. It has an instant knowingness.
May 9, 2014
Memories of the childhood
Memories of the childhood are good if you remember them from the view of Ai (Authentic identity).
Ego remembers it as a pain and problems of the moment. Ego rejects the childhood, seeing it as a time of powerlessness,
pain and a confusion.
This fuels ego’s craving for power and a pain free life and if you let it to have its way it will put you on a path of slavery and painkillers.
Authentic knows that our childhood experiences run as we signed for.
Seeing the presence form the Authentic opens your view on your childhood form the Authentic. 
All makes sense from the distance of time and wisdom.
May 8, 2014
The concept of boundaries does not exist in the world of the authentic.
It is invented by the ego to strengthen the ego.
If you are taught in psychology classes or your therapy sessions (ever so present in CBT programs) that it is important for you
to establish and keep your boundaries you are taught separateness, defensiveness and armament towards others.
You are taught to validate the danger of interacting with others and fostering a fear of their presence.
No wonder that a fear of public speaking is a number one phobia in North America.
Learning the defenses, the skills how to handle others when they are “out of line” makes you ready for the fight.
And when you are ready, the fight will come.
It is so simple, as all truth.
What you are protecting yourself from gives it energy to exist.
You do not need boundaries when your mind is run by the authentic, because no ego has an access to the authentic.
When you stay in the authentic state of mind long enough, no ego will have an access to your brain and your body.
Every cell of your body will resonate with an energy that ego fears and runs from.
You might end up only with one or two friends, but you will live disarmed yet absolutely safe.


March 14, 2014
I am particularly interested in the concepts of our identity, mobility and capabilities as a timeless self.
I named our timeless self "Authentic Identity" in my book, not by accident with the same acronym as Artificial Intelligence,
because both are described as something that they are not. Identity has no identity and Intelligence has no intelligence.
Today’s post will be about not knowing the right words because there is no language for it yet.
Morphic Field coined by the creative scientist Rupert Sheldrake, is a term used to point where telepathic communication takes place and it obviously indicates an area.
A field in a lay language, the same in the scientific language, describes a measurable, let’s say, surface on a planet. I have no knowledge of Rupert’s experiences, but what I understand  from my experience of being in that “field” that it has no dimensions. No acreage of any sort, where you can wonder about.
I had a sense of my position in the a particular spot, but only defined by my own choice to land “there”, for the obvious reason – a need of proof.
I needed a view that was impossible from my physical eyes to see.
If you land 30 feet above the place where you are physically sitting and take time to look around, remembering everything, then you go back to your body,
go physically and check what you saw, confirming that it was all true, you’ve got yourself a solid proof.
So I know for certain - the field is no field at all.
Our identity has no labels, or appearances. Our mobility is boundless, it means is instantaneous by own intention. Our capabilities are self-defined.
March 13, 2014
A strength of one's mind comes from an ability to recognize the voice of the authentic self, accept its authority and follow it
in an every step in life with no exceptions. 

March 12, 2014
ONLY by aligning with the creative, all-knowing, all-capable universal mind we are able to help others.
ONLY by connecting with a person’s creative, individual identity that is a part of the universal mind, a teacher can guide a student.
ONLY by being connected and tuned-in yourself, you can become a teacher.
Helping is not based on “knowing better” or knowing in advance.
The teaching is not a method, not a technique, no more than your life is a technique.
Helping is firstly, about co-creating the understanding how the voice of your timeless self sounds and secondly, hearing your message.
It is like a plunge into the-ever deepening stream of truth, experienced from your own growing perspective.
If it is a "special school" which expects you to earn a degree of expertise, then expects you to pay a membership fee, asks you to enroll in ongoing training
or you are out of the "club" I can guarantee you - it is to make you a servant of the agenda that does not represent the meaning and value of your life.
If there is any authentic message in it, it is erased by the system, created by the ego, f
or the ego to gain the power over you, to reduce you to its servant.
If you are thinking about helping others, start from reviewing the agendas of training institutions.

March 11, 2014
In the last post I asked: Why the “not knowing what to do with your life in age 20, or even 30” is not a big issue?

Very few parents are alarmed that their grown up children don’t know what to do with their lives. Most parents advise their children,
from a very young age to think about career that pays well and is in demand.
Go for a training where the jobs are, comes from the mouths of school counselors, parents and pretty much everybody else (with a very few exceptions).
If I translate this message for you in terms of wisdom, or rather lack of it, it sounds like this:
You are not here to create, you are here to survive.
You have no purpose in life.
You came without a plan or an idea what you are here for.
Your life plan begins at the end of high school, at the time when you need to look around for a profitable spot in society and it ends at the retirement, when you will do nothing
because you don’t have to, which is so admirable and desirable. Retire as early as you can, stash some money and spend life as a consumer that lives to amuse himself.
Wow! You made it!
As a parent I can relax because you will not ask me for money and I will not have to worry about you depleting my not-big-enough-stash that is for ME to spend.
Well... that is a programing of the ego with a main message that your life is meaningless and we call it: "social values".
It will guarantee you one thing – your children will become slaves, living in a survival and shortage mode,
working jobs that they hate, feeling unfulfilled and depressed, taking drugs and partaking in activities to feel better and not feeling any better.
Side note: mood altering drugs, legal or illegal are all the same – a crime against humanity.
What to do?
If you are in your teens or twenties, say no to the idea that you have no purpose here.
If you are a parent of young children ask them 1. Where did they come from?
2. What they want to accomplish in their lives?
3. Why they wanted to have their life in this spot of time and space, and why you as parents?
All children know the answers. But if nobody asks, if nobody seems to care - they forget.
It is buried under the endless information about the conditions of the outside world.
After years of mind-loading from the world of ego, children do not even know they have timeless self, never mind living by it!
How can you help them?
Ask the three questions as soon as they are conceived, ask when you are pregnant, ask when they are born and every week after that.
They will see that you are interested and that you are here to provide all what is needed to fulfill their plan.
March 10, 2014
Most of the therapies and psycho-theories stress the importance of roles that our family of origin play in our growth and self-shaping.
It is a common approach that not only recognizes but also emphasizes the pain that family of origin inevitably creates.
What we focus on, steps out from an obscurity and walks into the light, to become not only visible, but to grow... and grow.
This would explain why the family dynamism and drama is so huge in helping professions.
Why the “not knowing what to do with your life in age 20, or even 30” is not a big issue?
Because no one trains professional co-creators of oneness, wholeness without religious dogma. No schools of professional re-connectors with the timeless self.
Training is in a sector of dissectors.
To examine, analyze, or criticize in minute details became a model of modern science. No wonder people fall into pieces. They are perceived as pieces hardly holding together.
Well... in my view, the family of origin plays roles only on the ego level.
Concept that your family was a family in a different configuration in a previous incarnation is a myth for a needy ego.
If that was true for one person in Patiala, Punjab, means nothing and sais nothing about you (unless you are that one person in Patiala, Punjab).
Your family might not be representative of anything else, but the average of a human in a particular cultural group, that you were born to
in order to become a trail blazer, not primed for your life by one single ancestor!
Maybe your choices in life will be so advanced and so innovative that you will have to outgrow your family of origin.
To leave them lovingly behind, to agree not to be understood and walk alone to your future without anyone holding your hand will require more courage that you ever thought you have.
Maybe bond from the previous incarnations would hinder your life choices and weaken your courage, so you would chose family of no particular significance to you and others.
Think about it. Really.

March 9, 2014
A great deal of pity is sold under a disguise of helping people.
Another popular misperception, next to “broken family” - I wrote about it in yesterday’s post, is a concept that the aspects of birth are traumatic.
Separation from the mother, baby feeling scared “I am not safe” disorientated “where am I” were mentioned.
You poor victim you! Let’s pity those people who were born.
Wait! I think that’s everybody! O boy! Aren't we going to be popular! And we will make some serious cash here!
It is all made up, insulting, diminishing our being to pathetic lump of flesh, an ego lie.
Even if it would be true to the brain and the body, it is not true to the authentic you. The brain is not a real you and never will be!
As the authentic awareness we know very well what’s going on and until the memory of the timeless self is pushed away by the world of plastic rattles,
artsy mobiles turning hypnotically around and goo-goo gaga coming from many directionswe have some serious mind of the Universe behind us.
Don’t buy the patronizing concepts how small you are. You are NOT.
You are navigating your life from a moment of conception (I witnessed that fact) and you are in charge of it until you die.
There is nothing greater than you in life, because you are the life itself and much, much more...
March 8, 2014
Whose broken? 
I heard on a web tv program an expert on  “broken family dynamics”.
I tell every woman and man who are single parents: a family is never broken. Do not buy the label and feel less than, because a family member is not there.
Transferred from a brake up of a relationship, term broken family is a laziness of thought or an attempt to disempower you. Do not respect that and do let them.
If it is a lack of careful consideration of the meaning “broken” in this context, it is a result of laziness of thought.
If you say “o, it’s just semantics” you do not understand the power of words.
Words are not just semantics. They are energies created by the mind that holds the concept long enough to utter the words.
It is the people from a cruel world of the ego who label families “broken” to disempower you. They take your power for themselves to play experts of fixing.  
If you are a mother with a daughter you are a family! No part of you is broken because your husband died or you never had one.
People need to learn that they are not victims. There are no victims, only volunteers in life.

March 7, 2014
A fulfillment of obligations to our children stops short in this North American culture.
I am not talking about parents that charm children by abuse, neglect or abandonment.
I am talking about those who appear to give children all what they've got.
Those parents provide materially and look involved. They pay for basics and for extras.
They drive them to the lessons, practices, games and entertainment, yet they do come short.
The same parents never have a meaningful conversation, where children would express thoughts of their creative, free, Authentic, timeless self.
The conversations are about stuff of the world outside not the world inside and the children grow up not knowing what is it, this “mysterious” world inside?
The first sign that they do not know their inner world is that they do not know what to do in life.
They look for an education that reassures their survival, not their fulfillment.
They do not evolve, nor learn what is important in their life's final summary.
Why? Because they were never asked to show up and became supported as an Authentic identity.
Ask your children:
What do you think about it?
What did you learned from it?
What would you keep as your truth for now and what questions come up to your mind? Do you want to learn it by experiencing it?
Look your children in the eyes with a trust that they offer you an opportunity not only to learn about them,
but to reflect on your own understanding of the world/self.
That will deepen their connection to the endless wisdom of the Universe. Everything else is a pass time.
March 6, 2014
Any recipe of how to connect with God is not a connection with God.
A dogma, an instruction how to become a better human will not make you better human.  
Ditch any self-help book that its title begins with “How to...”
What would?
Thinking, feeling and doing as an authentic.
Learn what’s creation versus manipulation. Shuffling old data in a new way is not enough to be creative. Writing essay about things
that some creative minds produced is a manipulation not a creation, even if you write it in a new clever way. 
Learn what’s beauty, not what critics will tell you what’s art. If it doesn’t have a component of beauty it is not an art.
Doing good in not the same as becoming a do-gooder.
If it is not good for all parties from perspective of all-time, it is not good.
Consider the always and everybody and you will know what real GOOD is.

March 5, 2014
An idea that there is a field where all living beings memory is stored is not new. 
Dr.Rupert Sheldrake in the Lecture at the University of London, Jan 20th, 2009 speaks about his understanding
of “Morphic Resonance, Collective Memory and the Habits of Nature” http://vimeo.com/11653660  .
His idea that the morphogenetic (he calls morphic) field holds “habits”, the information that is necessary to manage life is limited to the ego, data and programing.
To know that the field is not limited to ego’s expanding life management is to know that there is also a field of knowingness that is related to creation,
instantaneous recognition of beauty, truth and love, field of meaning - gravity of presence and purpose - gravity of occurrence.
There is a difference between those two fields and how you connect and draw from each defines who you are in and beyond life.

March 4, 2014
I often speak about my understanding about two reoccurring basic questions:
Does ego exist or it doesn’t?
If ego exists is it neutral, benign, or evil, bad?
With time, my answers become more clear, even if sometimes I think “you can not get clearer than that”, there comes another piece of understanding.
Isn't that true about Life!
Asking “does ego exist is very much like wondering if echo exists. When no one makes noises echo doesn’t
A stillness, silence also stops the ego, but that’s how you want to spend your life? Stay silent and sit still? Some do. Is that a great virtue?
You might think so.
Not to me.
Because the problem is not with en echo but a purpose and a quality of your sound. Is it a song of joy that comes out of you, or you are screaming invectives.
Are you here to create beauty, seek truth and beam love or you are here to give your brain to the programmers interested in you echoing
the screams and abuses without thinking that’s wrong.
Without knowing that’s not what you want and that’s not who you are.
O, is that an another conspiracy theory?
No, it is a fact not a theory and there is no conspiracy about it, it is all spelled to you from an open book, written in the programing language
that you not suppose to understand.
To be free you just have to learn the language.
Ego is a totality of our programing and has many components. Look at the computer programs and internet, that's the ego reflection.
There are good, useful, important, needed things in it, but there are viruses, and many dark and adictive places.
Similarly to spending life run by programs, people now abandon their lives and spend their working and leisure time on internet. 
Are there minds that create viruses on the web for destruction in the functioning of your computer, taking your time and energy?.
Is that a conspiracy theory?  It's a fact.
Are there minds that create addictive games or time consuming programs?
Is that a conspiracy theory?
It's a fact.
Do they do that to take your time, energy, money, life?
Do they know that? Well, they work for profit, give them whole life, they will take it.

March 3, 2014
There are a lot of opinions about ego.
People quote a dictionary definitions of ego, like: "ego is the organized conscious meditator between the person and reality";
"ego serves to differentiate between tribal mind and individuality" and wonder what’s true?
My answer is yes and no.
If you think that personality is a set of programs, most of them picked by you to define your choices and experiences - the answer is YES it is
a set of programs.
If you think that personality is your individual mind, where self-awareness resides -
the answer is NO (unless you never thought that you are more
than a bunch of programs and you accepted that that's what run your life)
The differentiation between tribal mind and individuality is in your authentic, timeless you, not in the programing.
All the names, labels, titles, possessions, locations, say very little about you, only about your intentions what and how to experience in life.

March 2, 2014
The difference between emotions and feeling (see February 6, 2014 posting) explains the difference between compassion, co-suffering, and being moved/touched. Situations of victims,
the pain of others is not here to feel pain with them. Our pain is not so others would suffer with us.
The pain serves the purpose, it pushes us on the path of evolution which really begins with the courage. Usually a courage to stand on your own.
To stand where is lonely, because others are in huge groups staring at you with a contempt, criticism and external, false power. The pain is to move towards freedom
and a true, internal power with an evolving grasps of truth, knowing that the ego wants you to be stuck in the fight with its darkness, because it feeds of your energy.
The pain is to learn and move on.
To have a courage to see and say “no” to the lies, but spend only a moment on it.
The rest of your time and energy needs to go to a search for truth and self expressions through giving and love.
March 1, 2014
Every conversation, and actually all interactions with people, give us an opening to reflect on our opinions and positions.
That is why we often have conversations in our mind. We either rehash what we experienced with a different outcomes,
or we rehears future conversations, looking for the best state of mind.
It gives us an opportunity to become more authentic, to discover a new understanding. 
Of course, if the ever-present ego will take over, it will regret, vent or lie about the past interaction, and try to be prepared to get the best results in the future ones. 
When stating your opinions look for, and speak about, a prospect to discover a new insight. Examine the context and open yourself to a possibility of a shift
to a higher perspective. It will also help you to stop your ego from becoming patronizing (top dog) or being defensive (under dog).

February 28, 2014
You can not stop the wave of change... but the waves come and go, as waves do, and a great majority of people don't even have an ocean view.
What needs to change is the teachings that proportionally represent an importance of the outer world 30% and the inner world 70% of each and every person.
The outer world, the physical, including your body is represented by  emotions. The inner world, your creativity and discoveries, decisions and conclusions from experiences is represented by feelings.
Do you know the difference?
Did anyone thought you in school, from elementary to PhD, how to differentiate between your conditioning, programing of the machine, your body expressed by emotions, and you,
the operator and a creator expressed by feelings?
The purpose of operating the machine, the body, navigating through the intersections of the choices comes to us a feelings.
Feelings are present in an every cell of our physical body, that's why they are gentle (not to fry the body), moving, yet not forceful.
Emotions run through the nervous system, they can be bullish and compelling.
Hence the focus on the obvious.
Nothing will change the big picture of the world unless every human knows the difference between the timeless, authentic self and the conditioning, the ego.
Only then the choses can not be blamed on ignorance.
Forgiving them because they do not know what they are doing is wearing thin in my heart!
Learn. Yes, but who is teaching?
The education systems are created from the ego for the ego. They focus 99% on the world without the authentic mind.
For now let's go out of the systems, like this website.
By changing our identities from ego to authentic we will create the systems where a human factor will not be detrimental to its purpose.

February 27, 2014
When ego argues against your vision of the future life, it uses words like impossible, unrealistic, absurd, unattainable.
To stop you from creating life that you want, ego puts in front of you a picture of your physical reality as something much greater than you.
To take your power away, ego convinced you that you have no power over the world out there, including your physical body as something greater than you, and only somebody “more important than you” can heal it.
I tell you: you have power over everything, first of all you have power over those lies!
Secondly you have power to heal and create life as you come up with. Any doubt is a virus that needs to be deleted, as soon as it comes, because it does come.
No one on earth wants life that is based on what’s out there. Out there is all shits, no giggles.
Create the future to your liking. Think what you want. Skip material wants. Think about being and doing, not having. Use no one as a crutch or necessity. Necessity is not part of creation.
Remove the hissing of the ego with its pseudo-logic of limitations. Creation has no limitations. Including limited time.
Outer reality is yours to play with, don’t let it play you.
February 26, 2014
All what I write here is my conclusions from experiencing my individual life.
The grasp that comes to me directly at the time of, and evolves after an experience, depends on an amount of questions I am asked about it.
(Side note: Never tell a story the same way twice, unless it's funny.)
I use to search for my understanding in explanations of other teachers, but there was always something not completely true.
Was I a picky student, over critical and never satisfied?
That which was not completely true were the experiences (not mine) and the choices of their specific conclusions (not like I would think).
That’s why we are individuals.
Not “undivided” as some Gurus are dogmatizing, but” in division” with freedom to chose.
THE ONE MIND, that we are, only ”in division” can have freedom to chose experiences and create own conclusions in seven billion ways!

February 25, 2014


It took me long time to find the way to access the field of consciousness.
Plugging to the field is not yet a success because the morphogenetic field is divided into giving and taking.
Consciousness field and Ego field.
Ego field holds data and manipulation. Who, where, what, when, how... and can we get something out of it.
Consciousness field holds wisdom and creation. Conclusions from living and discovering the unknown.
Plugging to the field of consciousness and learning to completely rely on it is a success. Google that my mind!
This explains the idea that more you know, you are aware how little you know.
It is not at all that you need to know anything. All you need is a question and how to plug to the "field" of wisdom to get the answer.
I do not know the truth, but I know how to find the highest truth for a specific context.

February 24, 2014


Time for egos of this world to hear from the authentic that their crap won't fly.
Not because we will fight with the egos but because we will live by truth.

What truth?

For every context there is only one truth, everything else are imitations.
The same as it is only one love. There are no conditional and unconditional
loves. If it is conditional it is not love.



February 23, 2014


We come pre-ordered by our own intentions.



February 22, 2014


Life is a school (and all things show it. I thought so once and now I know it).
I am sure we are here, experiencing a life to learn.
Schooling, learning facts, data, know how, is here to teach us about our physical world but it is just a basic necessity, a beginning. 
By adding the items to the list of your life events, you are not creating an individual, own story. You are in the story of everybody else.
An act of creation involves an understanding of your positioning towards the events and the reasons behind the choices you make.
Be involved in creating your life.
When growing and not knowing life becomes, like your pants -  too short.


February 21, 2014


O, the deadly game of chasing time...  when we catch up with it we try to kill it.




February 20, 2014


What is the Truth about fighting?  Where is the Authentic knowing standing on that?
Is it possible to have a benign fight?
If you are harming me how can I stop you and not add a punishment for your action?
Can a punishment be Authentic?
What you think?


February 19, 2014


Beauty, Goodness and Truth are the  highest forms or ideas. They represent expressions of The Authentic through a physical being, doing and knowing.
Beauty is a manifestation of the Authentic as a physical  being and there no positionality towards it. Just being-ness exactly as intended to be.
Goodness is a manifestation of the Authentic as doing.
Truth is a manifestation of the Authentic as knowing.
Beauty, Goodness and Truth in the mind of Ego looks very different.
Ego judges, objectifies and rejects or desires the physical  beings.
Ego’s goodness, doing good is an exchange of goods and deeds and is always looking for payoffs.
Ego’s knowing is limited to a world of if it’s own agenda and its truth is limited to what’s best for self.
Keep reflecting on your ideas about life and self and step out of all positions that are dictated by the ego.
I know, it's a huge effort at first, the same effort as quitting an addiction... but one step at the time and it will come easier and easier.


February 18, 2014


Truth has no recipe.



February 17, 2014


A Prayer

Please remember that formula for a prayer/request is up to you. Do not limit yourself by any particular form.
Work on the trust that in the mind of authentic you absolutely ALL is possible and  learn to become worthy of all what your authentic represents in life.
Do not limit yourself  by the logic of the ego, because it will only bring examples from the past and presence to prove the point that what you want is impossible.
Your future is open to create with a little or no relation to the past.
Through the power of my... (guides, angels, higher self, God)  I request the most suited... (partner, work place, house, friendship) to represent the highest good and bring the most loving outcome in my life.



February 16, 2014


 Authentic welcomes all what life brings. Ego is a picky eater: either rejects or craves and chases after it.



February 15, 2014


Postings here are intended to offer my understanding of wisdom, as I see it from my window. The sealing of one level is a floor of the next one and I  spend my days 

gathering stuff to move another floor up. Sometimes I succeed. Rounding up my stuff means drawing conclusions from experiencing daily life to see

what is the ego and what is the timeless, authentic me or us. The seeing gives me a freedom from being stuck on one floor, one position,

freedom from being run by my ego and/or those around me. This includes embracing those stuck in the world of ego on the main floor,

usually gathered in the lobby, gossiping about those living on the upper floors. They would reject you but do not do tit-for-tat,

although those who reject you would often project their rejection on you. Do not co-signed under that statement. Love them all ,

more those who hate you, since it’s not so easy. Just remember loving others is a permanent state of mind.

It does not mean you join them in the lobby and hold their hand. It means you think kindly about them. Feel encouragement and hope, like looking at a kid, who doesn’t know how to tie his shoe laces.

No pity, no patronizing. Just kindness.




February 14, 2014


Spiritually-based relationships are initiated by a moment of realization that what we see in the eyes of the other person is much greater then in usual glances at people.


What we see in another person's eyes is either a memory of another dimension or access to a level of perception that is not accessible by sight itself. The subtle energy that radiates from their eyes carries a message from the world of Authentic Identity. It appears to be obvious and natural that we want to know what this message is.


The protocol of approaching a person is something of a forgotten art.

An approach to make a connection is like a couple’s dance, where one step follows another, and the next step can only happen when both dancers are moving at the same pace. When each dancer is aware of the other, and where no personal gain is an instigator, then the joy of music, harmony, precision of the movement, and the synchronicity between the two dancers, makes up the basis of the dance.


If the ego gets involved when recognition is going to progress to connection,  it all becomes like a bad opera where illusions are layered so thick that the singers do not hear the music, do not see each other’s movement, and have a slim chance to find the notes that would express their authentic inspiration.


Being able to create an authentic connection is fulfilling far beyond any ego gratification, and thus, it is worthwhile to learn the steps of this "dance". To be continued...



February 13, 2014


A spiritual recognition - seeing the timeless being in somebody's eyes, brings a sense of familiarity of that person. At times it's a chance to begin a lasting relationship.

However most often we have things to learn with that entity and when we learn, the relationship ends.

Some people are slow learners and can take a whole lifetime to move just one step while still staying with a person that has nothing spiritually to offer them.




February 12, 2014


Relationships with people who are not our spiritual equals are either formed with some serious help from the ego, or are brief a opportunities for accelerated growth.

When a created connection is based on equality, the relationship will last.




February 11, 2014


In my experience, it was much easier for as a therapist to bring a man's ego to his awareness and convince a man to let go of his ego gains, than it is to convince a woman to do the same.

I can speculate that the reasons why women are in a greater denial of functioning from the ego perception, is that their view of self is based on giving rather than taking.

Her value of self is rooted in nurturing, giving, and to face an “ugly” truth, that she is motivated by pay-offs of the ego, is less acceptable to women than it is to men.

Men are OK with an idea that they are out there to get as much as they can, and bring it home.

In Western societies men, for ages, have been conditioned to be the bread winners, and they openly and proudly fight for their rewards.

Women on the other hand are conditioned to be the nurturers and givers, to rely on men for survival and accept men's rewards as their own.

As in our Western Societies women's fight for equal social rights gave them their equal responsibility for providing for self and their children,

their spousal support became volatile and often non existent. The woman ego's overt fight for survival is still judged as unfeminine and unacceptable;

hence the denial that she also functions in her intimate relationship from the programs of her ego.

The style of operation of a woman's ego is usually less obvious than man's, that's why they are very surprised and defensive when they need to face it. 

Perhaps the more covert style of a woman's ego is the reason why women trust women much less than they trust men.  



February 10, 2014


The ego is a set of brain programs that enables us to function in our environment and like a computer program that cannot be utilized without a computer, the ego doesn’t exist without a brain.

Because the brain comes and leaves with a body, unless programs of the ego are passed to a new brain, it really has no other route to preserve its existence.

Unlike the Authentic Identity that is from forever to forever, the ego could disappear in one generation if we all decide to get rid of the un-integrous aspects of ego.

Since that is unlikely to happen, we need to learn to minimize its destructive force within us. 

Great majority of the studies of the aspects of human psychological and social functioning, until recently, were about understanding, and with that, validating the functioning of the ego,

while at the same time reducing the human to a computer run by the ego program.

Much the same as all other sciences based on Newtonian physics narrowed our interest in the world to poking at a pile of matter. 



February 9, 2014


 The ego software originally becomes installed in the second trimester of pregnancy, when the brain is formed.

Throughout the formation of the brain in pregnancy, infancy, childhood, and even adulthood a new installments and upgrades are added to the original ego operating system.

Since the ego is there to reassure first the self-preservation and then the self-gratification, the more the basic needs are taken care of, the more the ego shifts

from self-preservation to self-gratification. Concerns with dinner are replaced with what to do for fun after dinner.

Because dinner in North America usually ends up coming from the supermarket, and in the large majority of homes, there is always some food in the fridge,

a child’s call for her mother’s attention is more often "mommy I am bored" rather than "mommy I am hungry."

I teach parents to convey to their children this message: no intelligent person can be bored in this life.



February 8, 2014


 Do you think there is any relationship between the ego and gravity?

People's understanding of ego as self came from Freudian theories that describes self-identity without distinctions between timeless self, authentic self
and downloads of concepts of self, the ego.
Downloaded is an idea of being.
Authentic is pure being, no concepts necessary.
So, gravity and ego, both represent the realm of actuality not potentiality.
Both exist in specific conditions. Both can be eliminated.
Ego is the read of all laws of the physical existence of human beings (perhaps all physical beings...) if there is no presence of awareness of timeless Self.
When you are capable to stay in the Authentic state of mind, you feel light, weightless and when you shift to the ego state of mind your body becomes really heavy.
Gravity is an agreement to see physical reality from a perspective of a subject to that reality. Agreeing to live in a country where the law sucks, but you want to live there so you accept the sucky law.
What counteracts gravity is of course moving out of the gravity reality in your Ai state of perception. 
Ego is a dream to go with a physical illusion for the sake of the experience and the sake of the contribution in collective awakening.
Collective is the key. The humanity can not yet shift to a state of Ai an mass, therefore we, the seekers and the teachers have to take it slow.
To work on own awakening and leave humanity in the dust comes only from ego that wants to feel "special, better than others" and cash on glory from it, literally, expecting to be paid $20,00.00 for an hour of a conference appearance, as I was informed by one "guru".
We are here for others equally than for self, and others are asleep. Don't startle them with a rapid movement, because they will kill you.

February 5, 2014
Relationships, if you are aware of it or not, are an opportunity for us to see the light/love/authentic identity.
When we are looking in the eyes of others, we are searching for their light.  Our light sais “I see the authentic, timeless you”.
In the moment of looking in somebody’s eyes, if you are aware of it or not, you size their authentic identity.
People of a smaller light than yours - are your children. Most of biological children have a greater light than their parents.
People of an equal light to yours - are your partners. If you are a biological parent make an effort to become your children’s equal light. Most likely, your children
have a greater light than you.
People of a greater light than you - are your parents. Rarely biological parents have a greater light than their children.
When you learn to look and assess the light of others you will have much easier time relating to people.
Remember the assessment is not a judgment, because it doesn't carry a rejection.
If you are a biological parent and you make an effort to become your children’s equal light is not a favor to them, you are doing yourself a favor. 
Encouraged by her daughter, a mother called me and stated that she would be willing to seek my guidance only if it would help her daughter.
I said - no. I can not take you as student of wisdom with such a false premise.
February 4, 2014
If you are single and wondering if you need a partner in life?
There is one answer - you don’t.
You can live a happy life being single.
Yet, if if you are looking for the reasons to create an intimate relationship, there is only one real reason.
Because the greatest joy of life is to have an opportunity to express love.
Yes, you can express it all over the place: to children, friends, pets, life... and stay loving and smiling, but only in an intimate relationship you have full right to see it expressed to you.
There is only one reason to create an intimate relationship and thousands of ego contracts like there is only one love and thousands of ego imitations.

 February 3, 2014


When you put your relationship in the hands of the ego, you might never get it back.



 February 2, 2014


Ego exchanges, Authentic gives.
When you want to create an authentic relationship you would look at what you give to the loved one.
When you create an ego relationship you look at what you are getting out of being with her/him.
One would question if you really love when you are operating from the ego within that relationship.
Yes, you can feel love for the person, but relate to them mostly from the ego. That’s the biggest tragedy of the human relationships.
Loving and not being able to express it because your ego is afraid to be taken for granted, being a fool, being used... and begins to count gains, keeps scores, control... and the living by law of love is gone.
In comes an un-fulfillment, disconnection, lack of understanding, not being seen, not being valued. All the emotions that appear in a relationship when the Authentic you was not driving your action.
What if you are mostly Authentic and your partner is functioning from the ego? Well, you created it, you entered it, it came from your idea what you wanted to experience in a partnership.
Examine that and change it. It might happen that your partner will shift, or you have a big decision ahead of you. Think deeply, you will act fast.


 February 1, 2014


My postings here are about sorting out what is authentic, what comes from the ego and when is run by the ego, what’s benign and what’s toxic. Because most of the ego programs are non-toxic, like most computer programs are non-addictive and are not viruses, it is good to know where you are loosing your energy on daily bases.
Todays posting is very basic, yet unsorted in most minds. For some it’s no brainer, for some
It’s about decorating your body that takes many forms.
Some are basic and necessary, like cloths and shoes.
Some more supplementary, like watches, bags, belts, hats and other so called accessories.
Some nonessential but desirable contributors in decorating body, like hair coloring, styling, makeup, nail polishing, jewelry, and tattoos and piercing.
The toxic contributors in decorating body are those that your body can not get rid of on it’s own or with your minimal help.
When body can not return to natural state inherently, just being left to re-grow, or wash away, you are in the toxic area.
This leaves us with tattoos and piercing.
When it’s a small piercing, body will close the hole if you do not stick any metal in it for few months, however, once the hole is closed completely, you still will be left with some scarring.
Tattoos however are the most toxic ego manifestation because the body can not get rid of it on it’s own..
That explains a mixed feelings with emotions people have about piercing and tattoos.


January 31, 2014
Truth is not a matter of opinion.
Ego has opinions. Authentic speaks the truth.
Ego created debates and takes positions.
Truth is true in every context and from every position.
Truth lives in Always and in Allness.
January 30, 2014
Those who serve darkness will never have ego as their enemy.
January 29, 2014 
I do not know if it's in all languages, but in English and few other, ego terms are used interchangeably with Authentic. Perhaps it is not a matter of language, rather a matter of the  culture and social values. I wrote previously about a difference between feelings and emotions. Today in a conversation with someone who I would perceive Authentic and private, she mentioned that she could appear reserved.
Upon reflection, here is a difference between reserved and private, since one is from the Ego and the second one from Authentic.
Reserved is about the others. You have reservations about “them”. You reserving your opinion about them until you know more about them. You are not open to them because you do not know if it’s safe.
Authentic is always safe, no matter what, because Authentic in inaccessable by anything and anyone. Only you can mess it up.
Being private means that you are self contained, peaceful and others are to experience them, rather than show yourself off to them for applaud or approval.
Being private is an opposite to another ego trait, a need to broadcast to others who you are and what you know.
Why is it important?
Clarity of thought is clarity of heart. Self-description affects your energy. Clearer your energy, healthier you become.

 January 28, 2014


The only way you can screw up somebody's life is if you are that somebody.
Everybody else, including your parents are just conditions.
To blame the conditions for who you are now is to agree to stay stuck.  The blame takes away your will to change, freedom to choose and power to do so.

All living beings learn to thrive, regardless of conditions. They adapt, evolve, figure out how to live in the most adverse conditions.
We have NOTHING to whine about.
So get up and be grateful for the life you have left to be responsible for the whole you!


January 27, 2014


Time for egos of this world to hear from the authentic that their sh..t won't
Not because we will fight with the egos but because we will speak the truth.
And there is only one truth, everything else are imitations.
The same as it is only one love. There are no conditional and unconditional
loves. If it is conditional it is not love.

 January 26, 2014


Everyone needs to see this


Yeast/candida from digestive system is distributed throughout the body, where it turns to fungus, fungus is cancer.

Remember taking a probiotic pill or eating fermented food won’t make that much difference if you won’t change your diet. Stop eating sugar and sweeteners, processed food and yeast.   


January 25, 2014
Science-quacks or Quackademics


Todays comments suppose to be about intuition.

In Canadian daily online magazine I read:  "Scientists have dismissed suggestions that some people may have extra-sensory perception,

or a sixth sense, after a year-long study at the University of Melbourne." 


What were you thinking scientists? Is the Earth still flat?

Are we so preoccupied with what's for dinner that we are incapable of change?

1. Learn about the world around you, by your own logic. Spent time on reflections, questioning opinions of others and ask the universe to give you answers.

2. Live accordingly to the newly acquired knowledge. 

3. Share with others and insist on changing the systems that hold the lies as their policy.


1. Learn what's in your municipal water.

2.  Do not drink it.

3. Insist that your town would use the system to clean your water that is healthy,



January 24, 2014
Asking the right questions

I know for years,  most likely as many other people, that we have an access to all knowledge that ever was, is, and will be, just by asking the right questions,

the answers are provided. The knowledge comes in form of thoughts or experiences and is always self-explanatory. 

Not only needs to be shared on the web, but it needs to appear in the main stream teachings about our Universe.

I wrote an article on my website in Spring 2012 (see below) about our DNAs as re-writable CDs.

I know that to look at them physically in order to gather an understanding about the difference between species is the same mistake

as looking for the memory in the formation of a brain.  Memory will never show any significant difference between the physical brains,

the same as the downloaded programs will never show  any significant difference between one hard drive and another.  

The physical DNAs are re-writable CDs.

The difference is in the music.

CDs look the same until you play it. The lack of a physical difference doesn't mean that we are the same species or so greatly related!

We have to learn how to play CDs of DNA.




April 9th 2013

The difference between feeling and emotions

To share one of my recent realizations I want you to think about the difference between feeling and emotions.
Not so clear?
I hear people of the highest education and in the positions of intellectual influence interchanging all the time those two words and with that showing
a common ignorance about the difference between feeling and emotions. And it is simple, beautiful, and clear, although it came to me that clearly just recently.
Feelings are is the property of the Authentic you.

Emotions are manifestations of your ego.

Feelings are non-local, which means that they are independent of time and space.

The same as your authentic, timeless you, is not not outside of time and space, you are in it, but you and your feelings are not a subject of law of the time and space.

Feelings appear by descending instantaneously and stay present simultaneously to your every cell of the body.

They are energetic presence of wisdom, love and creation. Truth, goodness and beauty.

The feelings are subtle, not to "fry" your physical body, although they are obvious, undeniable, not fleeting and you can revisit them at any time you want.

Unfortunately they are subject of easy dismissal, because of their subtlety and common perception that it's a weakness, softness, mushiness, as they often can move you to tears.

Feelings do not require neurochemicals, like neurotransmitters, since they are show up in every cell.

Emotions are manifestations of the ego, they are local, constantly updated by the environment and stored in our DNA (the blank ones, that ego scientists call it junk DNA,
because they do not see the recordings).

Emotions are responses to environment, run by the brain and are navigated by the nervous system.

Emotions are way more powerful than feelings (shouting vs whisper) and if one does not learn to hear own feelings, his life will be reduced to mechanisms and reactions.

Psychology, wanting to be a science, reduced humans to observable mechanisms of emotional world and is stuck on learning, understanding and expressing emotions!
Yet it is only a surface truth.
Emotions are addictive, as they employ our personal "factories of neurochemicals" and people keep repeating emotional states
that make use of that production. A trap of the ego is extended when you look for help to brake this loop and you end up with a prescription for a psychotropic medication
with a message that you will be on it for life.

And there you are; not only a victim of your emotions, but also a victim of the ignorance of our times.
March 4th 2012         
 Compassion - is it ego or authentic?
I spoke and wrote about compassion before and it wasn't received with "aha, it makes sense!" partly because, when discovering a higher area of truth,
I become so enthusiastic about it, that I fail to notice that nobody is with me there yet (or very few at this moment) and to get them there I have to explain what I am seeing.
My daughter Paula gets so enthusiastic about her plans that she doesn't look at 10 people who are part of the plan that they might not like it!
And she is right who wouldn't want to dance and sing all night long? Only tired ego that goes to sleep at 10PM.
So what is the higher area of truth? Doesn't anyone speak the truth? With an exception of those who intentionally lie, yes, everyone speaks the truth as they know it.
A smaller context, smaller area where that truth can apply, the lower level of truth it is. The larger area of context, the higher level of truth. The truth applicable in all contexts we call God's truth,
absolute truth. As soon as you become human being, forget about absolute truth and we do. We get a download of ego that narrows our context in fear for survival.
For example; in an absolute truth you can not eat anything, because in an absolute truth you do not harm A BEING and that is everything alive; leafs and roots, and all.
Then you can become breatharian, live on breath only and some do, but if you have to ware something, live somewhere... where did that came from?
OK, you can live on the beach naked... then why incarnate if you are not a part of collective dream?
Back to compassion.
In Latin: com means with; passi means suffering. To be compassionate means to suffer with. If all suffering is created by ego, the part that is meant to diminish
or better extinguish your light, why would you go and join another being in the place of attachment, victimization, pain and suffering?
Because you were told repetitively that if you are not compassionate you are callous, irreverent, disrespectful, and without compassion you are liable to do harm
because you are not going to understand suffering and inflict it on others without remorse.
That's is a such low opinion about who we are!  We are gods in the body! Do you think that without joining others in their misery you wouldn't know what suffering means?  
In my perspective compassion is a trap set by the ego to spread suffering with one blow as wide across humanity as possible and it is so easy in the present state of human minds.
10% of humanity, psychopaths, no matter how you tell them and show them, won't get it. The rest of us doesn't need it.
We lose time energy and light when we suffer. In a state of compassion we go to yesterday, look and the past, lament about what happened, we go to a victim mode
and lament about lack they will have from now on, we say: "that's a shame" and ego is happy! It got us to place of darkness. Even if you go back to your light
and reclaim it's strength you lost time and energy and because your life is measured by
time and energy, you lost a piece of your life.
Authentic you lives in always and there you chose what you want to experience and create. In the state of the vision you chose future where there is a truth,
beauty, love and abundance. A shortage of any kind is the choice that only ego takes and collective ego pushed across the table and whispers take it
because it is noble to suffer; because what would "they" think about you? 
Do you see it?
First Day Of Spring 2012

Today’s topic is DNA and ego.


I am known to people who connect with me as an otherworldly inspired, innovative, creative, aware and regrettably to them not known far and wide, not rich nor famous for it at all.
Actually in the era of fools, when liars and psychopaths hold high positions in society and spiritual guru’s repack and recycle their passed down religious beliefs as
a “new great spiritual teachings” people like me, and there are many of us, do not see the point of mingling with that sort.
Ego always wins when you compete with it, because competition is ego. Also there is no point to stand on a soap box and convince anyone that I know and no one else knows
so I am first and I must be recognized and paid for it.  Firstly if I know, if I came up with an understanding of something that is not known to humanity yet, by naming it
I brought it to human consciousness – non-local storage of all wisdom, it is now downloadable to every human on this planet, exactly as this article on internet will be.
Secondly, soon someone will log in to it and write a book about it and as long as it’s said clearly and accurately, the purpose is served. Yes, you would say, but you don’t get credit for it!

O, yes, I do. Not from the people and places you are looking for credits in.

I get credit in a form where forms don’t count, in a currency where currencies don’t run.

I have written in my book in 2007 about authentic love and ego love. 

To Authentic you there is only one love, a beam of energy from your being towards something outside of your point of presence. Knowing your beam is feeling love.

Then there is an ego love, commonly known as falling in love or being in love, an emotional imitation of feeling love, mockery of love. It is a margarine that tastes like butter!

An emotional state perceives someone or something outside as a source of excitement, emoting a high.

One of my students wrote me:

“I'm at page 41 and reading stuff you told me about previously.

I have never heard David (David Icke in his latest book “Remember Who You Are”) share some of these thoughts prior to this book.

I heard this stuff at Yaga first.

Does that mean that you're 100 monkeys all rolled up into one person? :-) “

Well, good for David! He is doing a tough job of convincing the ego world that he knows the truth. If you can take spits in a face and kicks in the shin go for it,
but I will pass… I am a lady…

However, there is no single book yet (c’mon David!) that will tell you that feelings are states of your mind, accessible and manifested by Authentic, timeless you,
they are stored non-locally, there are based on truth, not a physical world, and if your mind ever grasped it, even only once, you can connect with them any time.
Of course it is great to look at any feeling over and over again and find new ways of knowing it, naming it and enjoying it.

Emotions are manifestations of an ego. They are stored locally in your body, in your “junk” DNA, that we presumably don’t know why we have so much of data storage and use so few. 
Ego knows…we have no antivirus/”antiego” to protect our DNA motherboard from the downloads and endless upgrades and updates of ego programs that are designed to control
our lives by emotions, which are triggered by the illusionary outside world.

Bruce Lipton, bio-scientist speaks about our addiction to emotions.

We are not addicted to emotions Bruce. We are programmed by the EGO to perceive an outside world that has something that we don’t have and unless we get it we are not OK,
be it people things, events. By the design this basic, monumental lie is present  in every aspect of the ego programs, present in every cell of our body so we would experience
viscous cycle of longing, missing, craving, rejecting, fearing, not knowing out of fear of not understanding, not seeking out of fear of not finding, not hoping out of fear of not receiving .
Emotions are side effects of our belief in superiority of the outside world.

Ego programs downloaded to our DNA gives us either complete lies or just a bit of truth where human inner world and physical world are mixed together enough to create an ongoing confusion. 
Like never bothering to differentiate feelings from emotions!

By the design pleasurable emotions are not accessible any time and not by the mind without physical triggers.
They can be imagined based on previously experienced physical world but never-the-less, the ego world, the physical, is necessary to emote.

Because they are not accessible at any time, we might think that they are designed to create craving of emotions that we want to repeat what we felt before and chase the high,
but about a hunger, desires, cravings, fears of shortage, hoarding, chasing after the physical stimuli? That is not to feel an emotional high, but to follow an illusion
that all what’s of value is outside of us and inside us is nothing. Well, brothers and sisters Buddhists, inside is ALL not nothing! Void is not empty dark hole, but whole un-manifested universe. 

Back to emotions…

Aversive emotions, if ever experienced, re-appear by a design, often with stunning ferocity and persistence and can be triggered by the most remote associations.
Aversive emotions by new programs of the ego are named a mental “condition” “syndrome” or “disorder” with hundreds of labels from health “experts” advising you that negative
emotions have to be greatly feared and to avoid them you need to take drugs, for life! No, not from the streets, we will sell you…. and yes, for life, even if you are 6 years old.
And moving from the ego, the emotional world of illusions and falsehood to the Authentic, feeling you, the world of reality and truth is so easy. Freedom costs you nothing.
Just move over. Being stuck will cost your life.


February 7, 2014


Someone asked me is our Athentic Identity (Ai) in a wave form or in a particle form? 

Because it is a thought, a concept and holds all possibilities in it.
Ai needs a physical body as an access to energy in order to chose a manifestation of own ideas in the form of energy waves. Particles are our perception of waves . 
As the love wouldn't be in a form of a particle or a wave unless... you are grabbing someone from the distance - it's a wave; if you already grabbed and holding than it is definitely particle!
If Ai or Love have no access to energy they can just dream.... and life is our dream come true.



February 6, 2014


There is a difference between feelings and emotions.

Feelings are manifestations of  Authentic Identity and are present in an every cell of your body. Feelings represent a freedom and they stem from an innate sense I AM OK.

Emotions are manifestations of ego and are present in the nervous system. Emotions represent an addiction and they stem from an innate sense I AM NOT OK.

Emotions are much stronger than feelings. Often feelings are taken over by emotions, since the ego wants to be in charge of all human experiences.

                                                            Here are examples of both:

      Ego – Emotions                                                                                                                                         Authentic identity - Feelings


    • Love
    • Joy
    • Enthusiasm
    • Happiness
    • Delight
    • Elation
    • Serenity
    • Courage
    • Empathy
    • Friendliness
    • Wonder
    • Amusement
    • Patience
    • Appreciation
    • Gratefulness
    • Determination
    • Acceptance
    • Reverence
    • Understanding
    • Forgivness
    • Bliss
    • Optimism
    • Trust
    • Willingness

May 7, 2014
Your life has all. 
You are born to have your independent, inexhaustible power. You are plugged to the Universe of Power.
You are lied to by those, who want your power to serve them and to make them look powerful.
You are born to be in a perfect balance of energy. You are plugged to the energy that fuels the Universe.
You are lied to by those, who want you to feel weak and depend on the scraps of the energy they produce.
You are born to be in a perfect health.
You are lied to by so-called-health care and systematically being poisoned by the food “industry”.
You are lied to by those, who want you to feel sick and depend on the Band-Aid solutions and pills they produce.
Don’t give your power away.
Learn how to harvest the energy from the Universe.
Stay healthy by being responsible for an every drink you take and every piece of food you eat.
Do not serve the liars your life on a platter.
Without your agreement no one has power over your life.
May 6, 2014
The joy of a co-creation with my students an understanding of their own lives, usually applicable to the rest of us,
is one of the most energizing experiences of my peaceful life.
Today early morning's Skype session had that very joyous experience.
The topic of the "memories versus the present moment" showed up.
Why our memories have a tendency to bring mostly positive events, while the present moment can be filled with doubts, worries, fears, negativities?
My reflection was, that my present moments are nearly all positive and the memories do not occupy much of my thoughts, unless we get together with my children
and start laughing about the past or enjoying a reminiscence.
The conclusion we arrived to was about a proportion of the ego mind versus Authentic mind.
More thoughts of this moment are generated by the ego, more of a difference we will see between our the past and the presence.
More thoughts are generated by the authentic, less of a difference we will see between them.
The ego virus, which is after the control over our lives, will generate the observations, thoughts and emotions, that inevitably become negative;
either about self (neurotic), about others (psychopath), or both (psychotic).
The ego virus wants to prevent the light of the Authentic you from shining on your life – the self, and the path that you are walking on.  
If you do not know how to change this paradigm, what's left is the only symptom remedy, a brake from the darkness of the moment,
that will bring a memory of a joyous past.
And that’s really not living your potential in this moment.
Understand, this is a symptom telling you, that you have work to do, changes to create, and learn to live in the now and in always.

May 5, 2014
“I am paying – you give me”.
My recent decrease  in the amount of local students is a reflection of my own change of the intention to have only those who are co-creating their learning.
To have an attitude of a consumer in their own learning does not fly with me anymore.
To invite co-creative students around the world, I posted on this website access to my time and energy.
Co-creation is free and depends on your willingness. For the time and energy, dedicated to another person, we still need to pay in this social system.
My son-in-law, this past semester was teaching a course in his university, while completing Ph.D. and observed an attitude of a consumer in a great majority of students.
You teach me, you give me, because I am paying for it.  I want to be served and I am not willing to do a thing to advance my education.
You are the teacher, I hired you, you do it for me, and I will only blame you if I won’t pass.
A consumer, which spends life slaving to earn the money that will buy him the goods and services.
All ego programming designed by the egos that intend to enslave and reap benefits from human ignorance.
Forgive them because they don’t know what they are doing.
Settling for an interaction with others based on their consumer’s attitude towards you.
The joy of co-creation, an true admiration of the abilities of the authentic, is way to obvious and too important to settle for “I am paying – you give me”.
No more.
May 4, 2014
Dear Yaga:
“I went on a first date tonight and I want to share it with you.
He invited me to his house for dinner. He has a lovely home and the dinner was very good.
He spent the night talking to me about various women he has dated recently.
He also talked about other people, I do not know, what was going on in their lives.
I was completely bored! He didn't ask me anything about me!
He made a numerous sexual comments about me and he tried to kiss me twice.
I rejected but that didn't stop him from repeating his advances
My answer:
Man wants to find home in woman's arms and he does not know how to create it.
He thinks that making sexual advances is flattering and will open the door for him.
He can have a nice physical home, but he is still "homeless" when it comes to his state of being.
Your home can use a man in addition to its energy.
His home needs a woman central to its energy.
Do not be exasperated.
Tell him what you know and close the door, if he will knock again he is willing to learn.
If not, he will live in the ego and make deals with the darkness.
It's possible that he is all ego, that needs to be fed and you were its next meal.
On April 10, 2014 I wrote the posting about understanding a woman’s home as her womb.
I receive letters and have the teaching sessions with frustrated people of both gender, who are looking for a partner
and end up disappointed and angry.
Recognize this: We do not own anything. If it’s your house or hers, at home, and really everywhere else,
treat your women as if you are always visiting her domain, and you will always be her guest of honor.

 May 3, 2014
Your Ganges river
If your work place is toxic, treat it like it is your Ganges river.
We are talking about the coworkers, not the work itself.
If the work is toxic, you have to quit it, never work at a place, where you do harm to the world.
If people you work with are living in a confusion and darkness, and you come home drained and sad or angry, you have to make a shift of understanding.
Treat your workplace it like it is your Ganges river.
The Ganges, India's holiest river, considered a source of spiritual purification for devout Hindus, is among the world's most polluted rivers.
How one can wash in a dirty river and come out purified?
It is your intention that purifies and heals.
When your coworkers are angry, petty, addicted to emotions, gossipers, hold empty, temporary values and talk about them a lot, play ego power games, etc.,
you can learn to see it as your opportunity to learn. Every place we choose, including our parent is our opportunity to learn.
Often it is a place to learn how not to be.
We learn our parenting from our parent this way.  When it came to your mind: “I will never be a mother like that” you did exactly that.
You can do it with your co-workers. When you see things that are unacceptable, make the promise “I will never do things like that” and stick to it.
The second benefit is to accept that people learn on their own account in their time.
When not asked, do not take a position of a teacher and do not try to fix their wagon.
Perhaps your ego would want that badly, but pull it back.
Learn to stay peacefully where you are, and leave them where they are. No rejection, just see them and accept them.
Abuse excluded.
Review your changes after each work day and after the review express gratefulness for your work place,
that offers you an opportunity to learn.
"Thank you Universe for my Ganges river."
You can only get exhausted by the egos of others if yours is struggling and fighting with them. 
Most of the ego fights take place under our skin and you might not see it.
Be aware of your inner world.
If you get emotional: angry, impatient, worried, hopeless, sad, it means that your ego fight is going on within you. 
Pull the ego leash back, tell it “nice doggy, lie down!” and go to your authentic to bring back the peace and joy.
 May 2, 2014
Something is better than nothing
All-ness exists only in the mind of authentic.
Ego lives in the singularity of reality. It picks and choses accordingly to its needs and wants.
In order to stop ego from dividing life into two piles; useful and useless, the authentic gives an option not to follow the emptiness of the ego.
The fact that we have to pick and chose between the ego and the authentic is not choosing between good and bad,
but it is choosing between something and nothing.
May 1, 2014
You are the all-ness
Only the timeless you can read from the non-local library of wisdom and information.
Ego has no access to what does not exist in its mind.
There is no such a thing that wouldn’t exist in the mind of the authentic you.
You are the all-ness and You are the oneness.

 April 30, 2014
Wake up people! 
When there is a shift from the authentic mind (non-local, non-physical) into the incarnated mind there is a shift from an instant knowing to “time knowing”.
When I receive a telepathic message I have to make a shift from an instant knowing, sort of “boom” to time knowing, a translation into a language that happens
in time – “aha, I am going to do this...”.  
Today my cat needed a water refill. He stood behind me, in front of the water bowl and gave me a message “ I need a new water, this one is not nice anymore.
I turned around, saw him sitting in front of the water bowl with a slouch. I grabbed to bowl and went to the kitchen to wash it and refill it.
When in the kitchen I started a chat with my cleaning lady, but in the middle of sentence I felt “boom!” As a thought I translated it to: “Hello! I am waiting for my water!”
I took the water and brought it to him.
He was waiting in the same spot I left him, with a look of an acceptance of my distraction, swimmingly patient, but visibly patronizing, usual Simon.
Operating our incarnated being in the time-space, requires system and application software – that’s the ego.
We need it when we descent from the instant knowing to the world of words and action.
Our problem with the ego is not that it’s running human lives in a rampant search for the best position to reassure self-preservation and self-gratification,
but it is because the ego is way more than that.
Ego blocks an instant knowing, it blocks a conscientiousness and it has a killer agenda.
The ego will take down the very life that is hosting it, not knowing that it dies with it - that’s how blind it is.
Although... maybe ego knows that is well distributed and planted in human brains and has no intention to take all of us down, only those who are aware
and to make those who are not, become ego's perfect slaves. 
And here is the end of the discussion if the ego is bad or good.
It is good if you run it.
It is bad if it runs you.
The Earths history indicates, that we, the humans let the ego run us, as individuals, as nations and as all humanity.
If we won’t stop it, it will take us down or will easily turn us into slaves through its trap of addictions, need for high emotions and materialism.
And it’s happening, just look at your life, and look around!

April 29, 2014

The perception of the ego.
“Ego is bad”
“You are an egomaniac”
“You can not be full of yourself, that’s an ego confidence”
“Get rid of the ego”
I feel like this simple truth needs to be shouted to the ears of every human, because people do not know this.
When you don’t know that your ego is a System software and an Application software you are allowing a mindless self-preservation and mindless self-gratification to run your life.
You can not live without it.
But you also can not let it to be in charge of your life and convince you that you are nothing without ego. Au contraire. You are everything without the ego.
You are all that it is in this world.
The Universe/ God keeps life alive and ego is a range of possibilities of how this life can express itself.
Timeless, authentic you, a being that has an awareness of freedom of choices is an operator of your life.
 Both categories of programs are designed to be updated regularly, accordingly to the changes of the environment in order to keep the life running efficiently.
Computers have a third category of software - Development Software. Life has a creation and an evolution. One spread in time becomes the other. Creation, in time is evolution.
All of the ego programs hold the life in a physical realm to its intention to keep on living, and keep on changing, but you can not leave the ego in charge of your actions,
because it will charge at the world blindly looking for the best position to reassure fulfillment of those two goals; self-preservation and self-gratification
and you will become powerless observer of your life.
April 28, 2014

You don’t have a good life.
All my sessions with my students are based on my connecting with their authentic and creating a new understanding.
Some students quickly become co-creative and similarly connected with the field of truth.
Today I witnessed my student’s creativity at it’s best!
Gem after gem was flying out of her mind and I could see that she is connected to the same place of an inspiration that I draw from, The Universal Library of Wisdom,
The House of Consciousness.
I was about to write a common phrase “or however you want to call it” and I realized that as common as it is, this phrase is another ego trap, because the things have their names,
it is important that we to see them for what they are, understand them and never mix them up. It is a base of our clarity of mind.
One of the comments the creative young woman made today was about her mother repetitively choosing a consumer holiday, a cruise, or a resort vacation, 
over vising with her grandson.
When the mother was justifying, yet another holiday by the need to take a break from her life my student said:
 “I never want to have life that I would need to take a break from!”
The concept of dividing your life in two piles is a concept of a slave and a manipulated consumer. Both trapped in the world of the ego deception.
You don’t have a good life if you go on a holiday twice a year and you haven’t seen your only grandson in three years.
You don’t have a good life if you have to justify your choices by "I deserve it".
You don’t have a good life if the material possessions and the ego pleasures replaced the care and love for your children. 
If what you are giving to your children is not of an equal or a grater value than what you gave to yourself, you don't know the giving.
If you can afford an expensive holiday every year, plan a cruise or a trip when you invite your children and grandchildren to go with you and pay for it.
That’s where the joy resides.
I know, I did that all in my life.
April 27, 2014
I don’t think anyone intends to be a bad parent, yet if the parents would be the only source of our well being, humanity would be in a really bad shape.
We could be in a much better state if we would understand that an every child will find a glimmer of love, even in the worse parent.
Then he takes this tinny glimmer as if that would be a proof of all what he is worth.
This becomes a base for what he expects and accepts throughout his entire life.
Know this: parents can not offer you what you are worth.
Look to the Universe for your offering and you will be surprise of Its generous appraisal.

April 26, 2014
Did you ever talk to someone, who will interrupt you with their own story about your topic?
Or worse, he will interrupt you with their own story on unrelated topic, as if he is saying: ”enough of that story, my turn”.
Sometimes an interlocutor will offer you a word or a phrase, that’s being helpful, but explaining the whole meaning before you finished is an assumption,
that your mind was looking for their answer.
You are talking to talk yourself to your answer.
If you seem to be stuck you ask: “what do you think / what is your take on this?”
Our part as a listener is to wait for that question, often no-verbal.
If that is hard for you – you are feeding and living in the ego mode.
April 25, 2014
Please read yesterday’s post.
When I emigrated to Canada in 1981, following my first true love, my husband, a “seasoned” Canadian (emigrated 6 years earlier), gave me a course
on a Canadian social etiquette.
From today’s perspective, however useful in his eyes the “does and don’ts” were, there were all ego tools of a social manipulation to avoid a rejection
and to get the most support from the collective and individual egos.
The directives implied a cultural mistrust of a non-scripted interactions between two authentic entities.
As if the true connection with people would be “unprofessional” for a wife of a director in a big company and a professional herself.
What a sad spell to be under!
A superficiality of human contacts, based on a desire to look smooth, at ease, “professional” is not only advised and rewarded at work, it leaked to all aspects of life,
including a family life.
“How was your day?” at the dinner in good homes (bad don’t have dinners together) is not a question that invites you to share and connect.
It just means tell me the trivia of your day, I will answer: “oh, yea” and it will be my turn to tell you my ego data. No connection, no love, no care, no joy.
One can say that a dinner even with a trivial conversation can be enjoyable.
Well, here comes another ego’s take-over. I call it mixing shit with a honey - a lack of clarity of thoughts and words.
A dinner like that can be a pleasure, satisfaction, contentment, but not a joy.
A joy resides only in the authentic.
Togetherness does not guarantee an intimacy. 
Disclosing own inner world and creating an intimate connection is a joy.
Joy is a by-product of creation.
Looking as if we are connecting while repeating the same rituals and conversations is not a joy, and not a creation.
Now, the ego will ask “how do I change it?”, “how do I do it? “
When the authentic wants to change, it looks for an understanding of the position that requires a change and then opens to the possibilities of creating a connection.
They appear spontaneously out of an intention of trust in own creativity.
If you never done that, it might take a few dinners in silence, before you will show up, ready to connect.
April 24, 2014
After reading yesterday’s post you must be ready for more of discoveries.
Another excellent hide out spot of the ego is  a label “PROFESIONAL”
In the North American culture in order to “deserve” a label of a professional you have to become and stay disconnected as an authentic.
The ego program describes an every detail of your performance in your profession, from expressions word-by-word, gestures, wardrobe, gadgets, 
vehicles to an office and home décor.
All in the hands of the ego to keep you unauthentic, disconnected and uncreative.
That is just fine is some professions. If you are an engineer you can solve a problem with an ego, but what if you are in a health care profession?
Well... here is an appalling fact.
The only healing factor is the very one that ego succeeded to eradicate – a connection between the two authentic beings.
A patient, who is loosing a battle with own ego (that’s why he is sick) and a healer, who wan own battle and is able to help the patient to win his have to connect
on that authentic, god-to-god level.
God within us heals. Nothing else.
To eliminate the presence of god / love in the healing work, an ego uses a word amateur” (amateur "lover of" from Old French and ultimately from Latin amator, "lover"),
in a contemptuous way, indicating that love of your work and love for the people you are treating must be a compensation for an insufficient formal training
(the ego tricks to replace love, care and giving) and your amateur work will be sub-par.
Quite to contrary!
And that very god within us is “unprofessional’ by the North American social standards!
As a psychological or social counselor, for example, you should not disclose any information about yourself, never give your address or a phone number,
you should stay unfeeling and non-personal, you should apply techniques the best only behavioral advises, you should spend time creating written records
longer than a treatment and disclose it to anyone, who is in title to look over your shoulder and read it. Like a clerk in an insurance company.
Professional, standards, required work ethics for counselors raised and trained by the egos to be workers of the egos.
God help the sick!.
No wonder people come to me suspicious and doubtful. They’ve been everywhere and got the same ego.
Sometimes they are surprised, sometimes they think they should get a “professional” disconnected program, not knowing that they should receive anything, but that.

April 22, 2014
Stay playful.
The ego in disguise of the authentic, hiding in the plain site, is here to drain the human energy to the point of its extinction.
It became imbedded in the language and social standards to appear “normal”.
My posts here are to point it to you where it is and if I am looking for the ego around me and inside me it is not to rant and to be negative, but to make it visible.
Pull it out of the hiding and present it to you. Here! That’s where your time and energy goes. That’s where you stay as a link in the chain of human misery.
I stay mostly unaffected by the its confusion and darkness with an aid of laughter, listening to a music (usually created by my children) and being connected to animals,
people and the nature.  
One of my couchsurfing guests, Loraine noticed that and posted a spot-on comment about me:
Yaga displays the unique and delicate balance of a lifetime of wisdom and the playfulness of youth. My time surfing with her will be cherished for years to come.
Take my ego write-ups the same way. Stay playful. Do not be upset, just be informed.
You are learning here how to stop giving to the ego. Treat it as a servant and don’t let ego to treat you like a slave, it can not grow without you feeding it.
On it’s own ego has no source of energy, source of love, source of okayness. That’s why it is after yours.  
Unfortunately for the Authentic you, in order to have an access to the energy you need to incarnate in the physical body, and this comes with an ego,
preprogramed and ready to be enslaved.
The shift to become a master takes a lot of learning for all of us, who didn’t have parents giving us the truth from moment of our conception. They didn’t know.
Good news - it’s never too late to learn. Especially if you are a parent.
Bad news - it’s always not enough time to live joyously in truth and freedom.
April 21, 2014
An opportunity.
What do we risk when we live courageously? A rejection of cowards, pleasers, unaware...
What do we risk when we step into an unknown? A loss of the illusionary world of empty promises, quick fixes,
instant gratifications, and pseudo happiness of fading fame and fortune.
April 20, 2014
Anything that you recognize in your conscious mind that you shouldn’t do, but you do it anyway, against your better knowing –  is an ill advise to yourself. 
And you create that illness.
When you do, even the smallest thing, that you said to yourself before “I shouldn’t have done that” “I regret it”, yet you repeat doing it - you weaken your energy.
You diminish your immunity.
That is why an illness doesn’t happen to us, we make it happen.
April 19, 2014
So called art.
“I love you” to the ego means:
You are mine.
You owe me
You need me.
I need you.
I have to have you.
I can’t live without you... and so on.
Majority of a great literary work dedicated to love was created from the ego state of mind.
Majority of a great visual art, films and songs dedicated to love was created from the ego state of mind.
It is from longing and never having. Not knowing that it’s within you and looking for it outside of you.
Living from the untruth.
If you want to keep the ego state of mind, keep reading, keep watching.
Identify with a nonexistence and see how your life will work out.
Empty, confusing, dramatic, emotional, is that’s why you are here?
To contribute in a collective deception?

April 18, 2014
Gender and the sense of self.
How often do we think about self in terms of our gender?
Do we think about our gender as a limitation: “if I would be the other gender I could...”
When we chose our cloths do we create an image of our gender and follow a social code or we dress a human?
(Although unisex cloths are really man’s cloths without the buttons.)
There is no concept of androgyny in the world of our timeless self. Being mentally between woman and man, or entirely genderless is non issue in the mind of Authentic,
since we have no body, a human or any other to stick gender to.
When we leave the body with its gender and ego programs, we are a mind without any properties. Our characteristics are only recognized by choices of our mind’s attention.
Unless we have an access to energy and chose to appear in a physical form for the purpose of experiencing life and interaction with others, as an awareness we have
no material for a form.
Although our choice of gender is our opportunity to experience life from that gender’s perspective, our fulfillment correlates positively with our identity as the timeless self.
More we identify with the egoic self, where the gender resides, less fulfilled and well rounded we will become in life. 
You life perspective will be limited, your experiences restricted and your power reduced. And that’s true for both genders.
April 17, 2014
Is an intuition the same as a gut feeling?
If it’s a different word, or an expression – there is a different meaning.
Using interchangeably words of a different meaning and dismissing possibility of differences, contributes in a lack of clarity in understanding the world.
How do I know?
I look up in the consciousness, non-local library of wisdom, and see the differences.
That's where the majority what I write here comes from.
It is the ego world that we live in, that scrambles the differences.
It doesn’t want you to see yourself as an authentic being with a free access to the higher levels of truth. 
You wouldn’t buy any of the lies that ego sells, if you would have a clearer knowing.
What is an intuition? How does it feel?
A intuition is a brief message of an instant knowingness and carries a directive in a positive form.
It has the same quality as a whisper that you hear very clearly.
In a noisy room a friend leans over to whisper something to your ear. You are ready to ask few times what she said, because you are almost certain
you won’t hear a word and to your surprise a message comes very clear.
That’s how an intuition feels. At first, feeling puzzled “wow, I really heard it clearly” and quickly, unquestionably accepting the message.
When it comes from the authentic you, it’s undismissible.
What is a gut feeling ? How does it feel?
A gut feeling comes from the ego and it is a result of processing information and spilling probabilities with a list of the most possible outcomes.
It carries a push and pull, there is no certainty, just a result of a computer processing a data.
A gut feeling might be right an intuition is right.
A gut feeling is dismissible, because we followed it before and it was wrong many times.
Another difference: if it pertains to our doing - it’s an intuition; if it pertains to what others will chose to do - it’s a gut feeling.
Since we are in charge of our will, we make the decisions, we can be certain. 
Others will follow their lives' design which we do not know, we can only speculate about.
Similarly to feelings and emotions, feelings are present in an every cell of your body, emotions are present in the nervous system,
an intuition is in all of you, a gut feeling is in your gut.
April 16, 2014

Happy Birthday
When my first daughter was coming to this world I learned to hear her thoughts. She taught me to communicate with her telepathically.
When she was born, she didn’t have to ask for anything. I heard her first thought and acted on it.
“I am peeing” she would think.
“OK” I would answer “I am going to change your diaper.”
“I want to drink”, “I am hungry”, “I want to be rocked”
“OK” I would answer and do it.
I was the world and the world heard her in an instant.
When you trust your mother, you trust the world.
She has no reason to doubt that all her thoughts will be answered.
Today she is 32.
Happy Birthday Paulusia.

April 15, 2014
Time for a teacher to come, get ready.
Did you hear an expression: “I am a creature of habit”?
Yes, it’s very common.
As common as running your life on an automatic pilot.
Ego programs become our lives.
Every day the same conversation, the same activities, the same food and the same rejections of novelty, of unknown,
and there comes a quiet fear of change.
If you are here it's time for change.
Reading won’t help you. It will show you a direction but will not keep you walking.
Only holding to a strong, steady, reliable hand to support you, while you are making first steps will get you on the path.
Time for a teacher to come, get ready.
April 14, 2014
Fundraising or  panhandling?
I heard a doorbell chime, I opened the door and I saw three kids, no older than 8, standing on my deck, looking shy or perhaps embarrassed.
A spokesman for the group asked if I have an empty beer bottles, pop cans or change. I glanced at the street to see where those kids came from 
and there was a guzzler truck, looking new and expensive, waiting for them.
If you send your children to beg for money so they can play sports or go on a trip, while you are spending at least $1500 a month for the truck,
insurance and fuel, you are teaching your children to live a lie.
Although this 8 years old boy had his truth washed out of him, his face disclosed a confusion and lack of ease.
To all the parents who didn’t stop and think what they are doing, when they sent their kid to panhandle; don't say: everybody does it,
so it must be right. It's not.
Here are the basic truths and falsehoods about fundraising.
1. If you have way more money than the people whom you ask to contribute in your charity you are manipulating others to support your ego.
A good example was Oprah’s lemonade stands to raise money for her school in Africa. Unless she gave all her money to charity and left a sum
for a "middle road" life style (not poor, not rich, $60,000.00 / year), it was a lie to ask others for donations.
2. If you are asking for money that you, or your children will be using for own (non-emergency / no-tragedy) expenses, it is not found raising, it is begging.
If you bought a show-off, wasteful truck (that your ego will b.s. to justify it), before you spent on your children's needs, you are teaching them to be beggars,
confusing their values, and stripping them off dignity.

3. If you are contributing in a cause that builds a school in Africa because one needy ego in your community wants to look good (and have a trip with it),
yet you do not know for certain if the children over there, want your English school, you are sucked in the world of lies.
Didn’t you learn anything from the history of residential schools?
No nation needs a to be rescued. It is your insulting, patronizing, ego that wants to look good and earn some Brownie points in heaven. You will not.
4. If you are running, paddling, cycling or doing any other, leisurely, mindless activity and you want to be paid for it so you can go on a trip, while your parents
spend hundreds of dollars on, let’s say, new cloths every month or 3 cases of beer every weekend, you are lost in the world of lies and confusion.
5. If you are going from door to door to collect donations for a research, which for decades proved to be a failure, did nothing but created more illnesses and diseases,
or you are raising money for pharmaceuticals and bureaucracy, that grew rich and arrogant, you wasted your time and people's money.
If you are defensive about it - you are living in a deception of your ego.
If you are a parent:
1. Be self-supportive and self-reliant.
2. Spend money wisely.
3. Learn to seek truth within.
4. Talk with those who know how to listen, you will talk yourself to the answers.

April 13, 2014
A place in heaven
The human focus on the outside word, leads us to creating an inventions and discoveries.
There are two objectives when we create any advancements.
The first is to experience and enjoy the connection with a creative force that we are made of.
The second is to offer the results of our thinking as an unquestionable benefits to all inhabitants of our planet.
How many human’s creations carry this premise to a T?
Very, very few.
Irreverence to side effects is staggering.
A negative repercussions of human creations is spread wide and far to the future, impacting other species and the rest of the environment.
Also the beauty and the wisdom are missing in the most of them.
Not only in the execution but also in core of the ideas.
This brings me to a conclusion that humanity is in a teenage stage of evolution, especially in North America and this is a call to:
1. Acknowledge it, it will get rid of your arrogance.
2. Start learning about really important stuff, it will get rid of your ignorance.
3. Take responsibility for an every breath you take, it will give you a chance to grow up. 
4. Be mindful when you try to improve the world, it will give your creations a place in heaven.

April 12, 2014
A truth becomes a thought.
When you recognize a high level of truth, the energy that is generated by Authentic you does not manifest it’s presence in the nervous system.
As if it would be a thought without using a brain, heck, it is a thought without using a brain.
As I wrote before, the ego functions only when it uses the brain. It is a set of programs, it needs a computer. Smarter the brain greater the chance for many ego programs to run it.
(Hence the smart psychopaths.)
The Authentic you is non-local and it can have the thoughts without thoughts, an instant knowingness, with or without the brain.
I know it because I experience it time to time.
However, when I start translating the knowingness into the words, there comes the difficulty... what language, which expressions, am I precise ,
how long should I go on about explaining it?
It becomes especially hard, but also rewarding, when I am on the phone, I don’t see the eyes of the listener and can not gage the level of his understanding. 
I would say those, who speak only one language have a much easier job. English is my fourth language in order of learning, second in the amount of use
and sometimes I am surprised and happy when I am heard as I intended.
When the energy generated by the Authentic you at the moment of seeing a profound truth becomes a thought, it also becomes instantly recognized
by any of the program of ego as an opportunity to run the emotions.
When ego kicks in with the emotions a sense of righteousness, one-up-men-ship, indignity, and even fury can run through your bran and the nervous system, 
like a freight train with no brakes.
Any truth that was ready to be delivered is lost because of the emotions.
Do you know that the only thing  the children learn from an angry parent is how to be angry.
What was she yelling about? No clue, but o boy! Was she angry!
April 11, 2014
We don’t have any needs.
Put yourself first!.
You have to love yourself before you love someone else!
Learn Maslow‘s “Hierarchy of needs” and if you want to be happy go after fulfilling them all! 
Lies, lies, lies. We were taught so many lies.
When you live from the mind of the authentic, you don’t have any needs.
Everything is provided before the ego will develop a NEED.

Even now, time to time, I have to stop and think, if a thought I am holding to is not yet an another lie of my teachers.  
Psychology was built (and still is) on the struggles of egos.
To the authentic those struggles are lies but nobody knew it then, nor opposed it in the main stream academia.
That was 40 years ago in my experience.
Guess what is taught today in psychology classes, in medical schools, in the humanistic classes? Same shit!
The worse part is that the many of teachers know that are teaching lies, but still hold on to the paradigm, because they will lose a position in their college,
a tenure, a license, a funding. They live by the ego, and die early and sick because of the ego.
One example of a wide spread, but preposterous lie was classifying human sexual acts as a fulfillment of needs.
Reduced  to a body function or an animals drive to procreate, each present in the body as a program,
it even landed on a list of basic needs.
And none of it is true in the authentic being.
How desperate, unloved and unloving Maslow had to be!
Did you ever saw anyone dying out of a sexual hunger? No, but it sells a lot of pornography and supports prostitution.
A human ability to physically, sexually express the love in an intimate relationship is the most complete expression of our being.
Those who cannot understand it, they will never see what can happen to a body when the mind of Ai is in a complete state of love.
There is zero needs in it. 


 April 10, 2014
The house for a woman is her womb.
Why women get angry when someone (mostly men and her children) messes up their freshly clean, organized house?
Because the woman is the house.
I wrote  in my book 7 years ago, about woman is a house a man is a visitor. Here is a fragment:

"Our newly gained women’s equality, still rightfully so, preoccupied with the battle for the rights and privileges that were denied for ages,

is sensitive to pointing any fundamental differences between the genders. Afraid to see it turning into a loss of already gained ground of equality rights,

women have a tendency to overlook or deny some obvious differences, and as all new movements, have a tendency to pour the baby out with the bath water.

One of the fundamental differences is that in an intimate relationship a woman represents a house and a man represents a visitor – here both figuratively and literally.

Sexually, mentally and emotionally, a man enters a woman’s body, domain and personal space. This process does not happen (naturally) the other way around.

Temporary and playful role reversals are excluded, but any serious and permanent alterations to these biological, psychological and mental differences

between men and women upset “the law of the universe” or the truth and with that create a pain and confusion in heterosexual relationships.

It is a very important statement and if followed with the right attitude, seeing it as a natural expression, rather than being pegged and restricted,

it produces only fulfillment and harmony."

The house for a woman is her womb.

You come and poison her womb with your mess, she will consider aborting you.

If you are a man who claims the right to mess it, because it's your house too, you do not understand your fragile position as a permanent visitor.

Treat your women as you would be always visiting her domain, and you will always be her guest of honor.



April 9, 2014
Free will and a higher good.
The ideas like: “God has a plan for you”, “asking God what should I do”, “God, please give me a sign”, are very common amongst a religious believers
and non-religious believers (and they are those, like me).
The concept of having a free will and then giving it back to a greater mind than yours, was on my mind as a most profound and at the same time very confusing to reflect on.
How do you know if the voice of the mind that you are asking for direction and considering to be a greater mind than yours, is not after your mind to serve him. 
Taking your energy to support his? 
I went to workshops, seminars, and classes, with channelers, gurus, spiritual leaders, and famous authors. I read, I heard, I watched many, many thinkers of all times.
Not a single one was 100% true.
When a human speaks, there comes an inevitable - a fluctuation of levels of truth. Up and down. Oh, she’s got, oh, she lost it.
Some, with a unwavered certainly, claim own high spiritual position, even call themselves enlightened, and yet speak also untruth and ego.
I never heard anyone to stay on the same high level of truth in every statement, except for the great, unknown to masses, enlightened  Melvyn Wartella (1939-2011)
If you received a free will, it is yours to keep.
Giving it back is an act of courage, trust and a temporary gesture for a specific purpose.
This is not be will-less. It is an act of reflection and seeking a council for more clarity, a greater perspective and the understanding of the highest good.
It is not to give up on own mindfulness, willfulness and independence of thought.
It is to be discerning and aware, but also grateful for the help, .
If you ask God for advise, you open your mind to receive. You can get a thought from any of the thousands of entities rushing to get your attention,
many not so benevolent, some quite unaware.
The fact that they are in the form of a pure awareness doesn’t make them God, or even much greater minds then those on Earth.

April 8, 2014
A little bit of physics.
Speed of sound 767 milles/h., that is “mach one” (mach one - passenger jet, mach two -fighter jet, mach three and half! – SR 71 Blackbird jet).
Speed of light 186000 milles/sec., eight times around Earth’s equator, that is mach almost 1,000,000! Yes, mach one million!
Speed can affect time.
Time slows down the faster you move – it has been shown in an experiment with an atomic clock, clocks now so accurate, it will lose or gain only one second every 300 million years...
...unless you put it on a fighter jet, atomic clock slowed down.
Accordingly to Newton it shouldn’t happen and yet, the faster particles move, the slower their clock goes. Time is affected by speed and also by gravity.
Gravity can slow time. This effect is called gravitational time dilation, also called a gravitational redshift – the slowing down of time near a massive body.
In most circumstances, such gravitational time dilation is minuscule, hardly observable, holds true to a precision of seven parts in a billion,
but it can become very significant when spacetime is curved by a massive object, such as a black hole.
Matter can create gravity, but also light can create gravity.
More physics?

April 7, 2014
More on the Light and the Darkness.
The Darkness wants to merge with the Light, because creating a separate mind, divorced from the Light was a mistake of one free will recipient, who knew better than God.
That is why the darkness goes after the light. It wants to come home, but since it is a darkness, after all, too lost, too confused, instead of merging, tries to destroy it.
That’s all what the darkness knows.
If you are scared of it, it succeeded, you shifted into the darkness.
If you love it, it gets stronger, thinking it manipulated your mind to support it. It won’t take you to the darkness, but it will gain the power to take others more easily.
If you are pretending that it’s not there, your indifference will give it a green light. It will become bold and righteous, and it will look and talk as if it would be the light itself.
You do not have to save the world, just remember, by coming here to this life, you committed to scoop a bucket of the darkness and turn that shit into a fertilizer
to grow a healthy garden on it.
It’s never too late to deal with the bucket.
Yes, it is true that light is all that ever is.
Yes, it is true that the darkness is nothing, but a dream.
The school of life is a dream, that came true.
In this realm there is the darkness, just look in your bucket.

April 6, 2014
Dilemma with the light and darkness.
My postings carry my dilemma I have with the light and the darkness.
If we stay in the realm of light, the darkness has no access to it, right?
If we fight with the darkness we are sucked in the darkness and we add energy to it, right?
So how do we help to those, who are unaware that they are contributing in the darkness?
No one wants to contribute in the power that does harm.
No one wants to suffer from the harm of the darkness that some programs of the ego carry.
My job in this world is two fold. It is a job of a mother and a father.
The nurturer and the coach.
My job is to love and care for those who come to my life seeking support and guidance.
My patients is endless and my commitment to them stays solid, until they are good on their own.
They would be first to tell you that I do not let their ego to get away with anything, but yet they inevitably feel loved.
I employ my ego to become a lion on a tight leash.
I know it is on a leash and I know that it is on a job of roaring to make my point serious and clear.
I know that my ego will not get out of my grip no matter what, although at times it wants to, badly.
Although I point at the darkness, the drain of life energy by the ego, my postings don’t drain me, my work doesn’t drain me, My parenthood didn’t drain me.
I have an unlimited access to the light, as we all, and I use it.
I see the darkness, I point at it, and I go back to the light.
Look where I point.
Learn the difference.
Get rid of the darkness from your mind.  
Not knowing where you are investing your energy will deplete your account.
Ego is working to empty it. You run out out of energy, you run out of life.


April 5, 2014


Don’t call yourself an ego.

If you connected dots in my postings you know that a presence of the ego requires a physical body, and any manifestation of it’s presence is taxing on the body.
You also know, that the presence of Authentic you does not requires a physical body, although it can be present in the body,
but it doesn’t age, ware and damage the body, quite an opposite. Without the ego, length of our lives would be up to us.
With the ego we have, what everybody else is having, a death sentence that we can do nothing about it.
Keeping a body alive and claiming it as a success of medicine is a sorry excuse for the ego reducing and dis-powering people.
Sometimes I feel that the change is around the corner and sometimes I don’t see it in a thousand years.
For an every Authentic being out there – and that’s pretty much everybody, from today on, think about yourself as a Timeless being,  Aware presence,  Authentic identity.
However you will call it, it’s fine, just don’t call yourself an ego.


April 4, 2014


Connecting emotions with motions.


I wrote a few times in my postings about the difference between feelings and emotions. (February 6, 2014, March 2, 2014)
Today is a new thought about emotions.
Feelings are manifestations of  Authentic Identity and are present in an every cell of your body. Emotions are manifestations of ego and are present in the nervous system.
By present I mean emotions need a nervous system to exist.
A body movement wouldn’t exist without nervous system. When you connect emotions with motion you have an answer why emotions instantaneously move our body to action.
Why anger moves body to attack, often out of control of the person.
They both run on the same wires.
Why feelings do not move us to action?
Sometimes only tear ducts are moved to shed a tear.
Although tears are associated with emotions they can be caused by yawning, a wind, other environmental stimuli, and feelings. Because the feelings are permanent states of the authentic mind,
they are in a way stationary and do not need a physical body to be. They do not run, they are always present. 
When we create a feeling, we can always access it it as a feeling.
When we create an emotion we can not access it as an emotion. We can aces it as a story, a memory of emotion, but not as an emotion itself.
Why is it important.
Controlling a behavior, in a wide spread CBT (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy), is an act of ego. Pretending to be doing something good while doing nothing good.
Stopping a behavior through a variety technics is treating the symptoms without understanding and healing the cause.
But isn’t that a truth about many of our modern healing professions.
Why can I take a person within few years from the grips of the ego, and of the life sentence, while a highly respected (and grossly overpaid) profession of psychiatry can't?
Commonly a psychiatrist tells a person, here is your diagnosis / label, and here is a pill. Oh, and you will have to take it for the rest of your life.
You know it's a lie. A big, toxic lie.
This in to toot my horn, because given the knowledge and having a courage, which stems from the knowledge, anyone would do it. 
I know that they do not know, they are taught not to know, and they are taught to think that they do to keep the status quo,
but you do not have to believe in it.  Do not support it, and start looking for the truth.


April 3, 2014

Ego needs a brain, Ai doesn't.
The importance of knowing that you are the authentic, timeless being and shifting your identity from the ego programming to the authentic,
becomes the most obvious when you observe people with dementia or Alzheimer disease.  
Installed programs, called ego show us how the outside world works, although, often the read of the world is seriously distorted, they still give us
a navigation map for the maze of life. Authentic suppose to chose the route.
Ego not suppose to form and replace our identity and make decisions, but create a competence, a swift, familiar functioning in the world.
Authentic suppose to be your conscious identity.
Ego needs a brain. Comes with it and will be gone with it.
The mind of authentic needs no brain to know. That’s a personally experienced fact.
Give it a handful of brain cells and it can perform miracles.
 When you shift your identity from the ego to Ai (Authentic identity) then the abnormal structures called plaques and tangles, prime suspects in damaging and killing nerve cells,
have nothing on you! It would take long time and a lot of killing to take down your 20 billion cells... (100 billion supposedly is a myth and I am not going to start counting))
Remember, a normal size or full functioning of the brain is not essential to understanding the world, and living a full life.


April 2, 2014


Learn to seek answers in the library of wisdom.


If you can not explain an observed reality by your theory you have an insufficient theory.
P. W. Bridgman, a physicist (supposedly) said: “A coincidence is what you have left over when you apply a bad theory.”
Why do we accept the theories that explain such a minute piece of reality that it’s utterly useless, or give explanations of a reality, or laws
so complicated, that no one understands?
Because the ego keeps it this way. One side is trapped in self-importance and another in self-insignificance.
One sais “I know!”
Another sais “OK, you know better”
not confident enough to challenge it.
How about “I don’t know, I am working on it”, "I know only this much". 
Also if something interests you don’t leave your “I do not know” to others to tell you. It will turn out to blind leading blind.
Learn to seek answers in the library of wisdom by asking, by thinking, by trusting that your answers will come and they will.



April 1, 2014


Ego creates sameness, addictions, habits...
A repetition “layers” the energy in the same “place” and creates a density of energy that we perceive to be aversive.
A lighter energy, less dense pleases us.
An energy that dissolves matter, turns it back to energy is the most appealing to our Authentic mind.
The soul, the record keeper rejoices when it sees a change.



March 31, 2014

The consciousness, the spirit, the soul...
It is urgent for humanity to understand that there are free and endless resources for us to draw from, even though reprograming the ego accordingly
will require an incredible effort, we must do it now.
Drawing sufficient conclusions from insufficient premises – that’s intelligence. Recorded conclusions, stored in the consciousness, non-local library,
that we can access any time, any place - that’s the wisdom.
Drawing new conclusions from old premises, expressed with beauty and love in mind - that’s a creativity.
Every single manifestation of our presence is recorded, cataloged and archived  - that’s the soul. We can also access our own soul,
our private record keeper, at any time, any place. Other people’s souls we shall only access with their permission.
We can also access souls of nations, of times past and present, we can access it all,as long as we do not trespass freedom of others.
The love, the essence of our awareness, expressed by giving and a benign state of mind that generates energy (when we have a generator, the brain) – that’s god within.  
Free, unlimited access to all energy of the Universe – that’s the spirit .  Laboriously transforming a matter to harvest a pathetic amount of energy,
polluting and destroying a balance of our environment is an exemplification of how little we know about the energy, true self, the Universe, and the grip of the ego.


March 30, 2014


Without your growth your children will be dwarfed.


I am not a cleaning service of your messed up parenthood, that you can hire, keep messing up, and Yaga will scrape it off your pain-covered children.
Without your growth they will be locked for life in the dynamism that slows them down, or even blocks them and always generates pain.


 March 29, 2014


Even the darkest of the dark has the light.
The the Universe, Good, understood as All-ness, means that nothing exists outside of All-ness.  
That would mean there is nothing without the light of creation.
Even the darkest of the dark has the light, because there is only light, in various degree of presence. 
The purpose of an every human is to make the light brighter within us and around us.
Purifying our intentions from any other agenda, but the turning dimmer up, is a good start.

March 28, 2014

Listening to the downloaded commands of ego is a dead end road
As you know, the point of this website is to assist readers in finding and strengthening their connection to the Sacred.
The Sacred is the mind of all-ness, the Universe, expressed by oneness, singularity of life forms.
All-ness means all intelligence, all love, all energy, all creativity, that we, humans are a singular expression of.
There is no need to grasp the Universe and there is no time to express all-ness.
In the limited time on Earth we have to constantly make choices.
Listening to the downloaded commands from a remote ego - is a dead end road, literally.
I will challenge you every Monday to find one command that ego makes you to follow, either by thoughts, emotions, or action and stop it.
Stop behaving as an ego, stop emoting ego’s drama, stop following ego’s lies.
You will be surprise to see what is underneath all that racket.




March 27, 2014


Thoughts are ego, an instant realizations are Ai.

To clearly see the ruth from falsehood is a lifetime achievement award. Perhaps it’s an award of many, many lifetimes...
Since so very few receive it, I can give you a few pointers to get you at least to the award ceremony.
First of all, the truth is always relevant to the context and there is only one truth for the highest good for every situation.
If you chose something else than the path of that highest truth for the highest good in your situation, you will create pain and repeat the lesson.
An answer comes within few seconds, as instantaneous knowing and at that moment carries all certainty.
Comes as a sensation of a relief and an energetic boost, yet not exciting, just strengthening.
Truth strengthens the front of your body and your feet, it grounds you. Falsehood energizes and tenses the back of your body and arms.
Gut feeling is your ego, usually warning you and telling you to run.
Chest/heart feeling is you, the Authentic identity, filling your chest with energy and and awe.
Thoughts are ego.
Instant realizations are Ai.
Just keep observing and asking, the answers will come if you insist on knowing for the highest good.



March 26, 2014


We come with a knowledge of who we are. 


I was born in the era when looking inside a TV set for people showing on the screen was not so uncommon.
Treating the body as it is the very special place where the divine resides sounds to me the same as looking inside a TV set.
All “kingdom” is within us means stop listening to the ego, that sends you on a chase after something out there, outside of you,
in the material world or the world of ideas that will save you.
It does not mean looking literally“within” the body  and calling it “a temple”.
The divine is no more, no less in your body than it is in an every cell alive!
A non-local awareness that is the real you (Authentic Identity) is not sitting inside your body is some cozy spot called chakra or pineal gland.  
You are everywhere and nowhere. You are where you point with your mind.
A concept that we have, build in, an innate abilities and soul’s information, means that we come with a knowledge of who we are
and a design of our intentions.
What’s in the body is an energy resonance that magnifies, and can help you to recognize, a signal that you sent for.
And so does everything around you - because it's you, who required its presence.
When you get that, you can become responsible, a grown up.



March 25, 2014


Is a confusion, darkness, pain, destruction - evil?


I noticed that my previous posting indicated that I know what is the root of all evil?
Firstly, not all and secondly, not evil.
Is a confusion, darkness, pain, destruction - evil?
Or it is an inevitable effect of evolution that is in a constant motion.
Was it taking an apple presented to Eve by the snake - evil?
Or was it a partnership in learning and co-creating?
Did God create the ego by sorting out chaos through law and organization to simplify learning and support co-creating?
If that’s so why than chaos became bad and continues to be a bad word to this day, but Cosmos, representing law and order is something endlessly great?
Maybe ego representing rules and law suppose to be helpful in sorting out chaos in a very limited way and it overgrew like beaurocracy?
Since without chaos there is no creativity, overgrowth of ego needs to be clipped.
All creative forces, step forward!



March 24, 2014


Human Nature.
Mostly attributed to humans in a negative context, a concept of Human Nature is a sore excuse for allowing the ego to make up personal and social rules, 
accordingly to its two basic objectives: self-preservation and self-gratification.
In its most toxic aspect, the ego, most likely evolved from a single idea of perceived opportunity to gain and exercise a control over the resources of others.
In order to increase a probability of self-preservation and a gain of greater, easier access to means of self-gratification,
people started using and abusing nature and each other.
Keep in mind that ego programs were design to be benign, serving as a record of data for the purpose of self-preservation
and self-gratification without any intention of harm to the balance of the environment. 
The evolution of the toxic part of the ego took a huge growth spurt in the last few hundred years and we are beginning to pay for it.
The irreverent values of the ego are hiding in words like economy, profit, patriotism, loyalty and thousands of others.
Economy indicates that you are manipulated and used to produce what’s defined by trends in every industry.
Profit means you are expected to do more for less.
Patriotism, your nation is better than some other nation.
Loyalty, don’t represent your truth, represent interest of names, brands, other people.
We have to quit supporting and start cleaning our minds and the languages from ideas that are straight from the toxic ego.
I am not in an agreement with the theories that there are particular people who have a plan to harm everything in site.
We all are those particular people.
By holding to the values, without values.  
By speaking words without thinking.
By relying on programs rather than own awareness.
By wanting to be right, rather than looking for the highest truth.
By being sloppy, glib, lazy and mindless.
We are the subjects of conspiracy theories. Knowingly or unknowingly, actively or passively, some more, some less,
we all bring harm to this amazing world.
Make an effort to change.
And don’t use the copout of Human Nature.


March 23, 2014 


The non-local “field” of information stores data to facilitate an evolution of all species, including us, humans.
To reassure that the evolution is progressing in unison the data is accessible from everywhere, any time, instantaneously creating a universal blend of all characteristics of the species.
A regional character of the data in the non-local field serves the same purpose, with stress on the most relevant information, or specific only to the particular area.
Both fields of information contain totality of the ego.
That is a definition of the ego - totality of the information stored locally and always copied non-locally. 
Without the field - the ego would not exist.
Also, if all the information would only be manifested locally, passed by physical, observable means, human kind would not have many universal characteristics,
especially an understanding of psycho-social human characteristics would be greatly obstructed by a geographical division.
Since the true knowledge of a human being is to a great degree applicable to every human in the world, it logically points to “a mysterious” non-local means of communication
between minds of all the people in every part of the world, without us understanding it and paying attention to it.
My dream is that we start paying attention to this field and chose to tap to it as means of communication, slowly creating a skill and ownership of this unbreakable connection.

March 22, 2014 


The behavior patterns are results of the ego programing, downloading an identity from its environment.
Creativity is a manifestation of Authentic you downloading non-locally future possibilities and solutions.
Evolution would be impossible without creativity, but habits, ego programs, yesterday’s knowledge is slow to die in people and the evolution goes pathetically slow.
Holding to status quo with both hands is the one of the main characteristics of the ego.
It is a frustrating position to be psychologically creative and also have a knowledge that the ego in people’s computer will not allow the new paradigm 
to be processed and established as the new way of living. 
In the helping professions most of the pieces of creative solutions are so finely chopped and offered with such a small spoon that I often think they are more of a problem than a solution.
A lot of irrelevant or even untrue information comes with one tiny creative thought.
The cure pill has such a small amount of an active ingredient and so much filler that requires hours of listening to helpers and inspirational speakers,
but in the final counting people are rarely left inspired more than for few days, never mind helped for life.  
Thousands of seminars and millions of books every year sold to help people yet North Americans are sick from the lies of their own ego. 
It is suspiciously similar to a design of pharmaceuticals. 
Billions are spent and the results are often negative. 
I do understand that the road of effective inspiration is very narrow.
On one hand we respect that the conditioning holds extremely strong on the other hand we also need to know that there is a power of Authentic in each of us, capable to do miracles.
I am guilty of overloading terrified and mistrusting minds, but I also have the courage to take a responsibility for pushing them because I fully trust that I have the Universe
supporting my work with all it's power.
And the Universe knows no failure.


March 21, 2014 

More about religions...
If you do not live in loving kindness, either in connection to essential, undebatable truth of your spiritual teachings or your own revelations of how the things truly are,
belonging to a religion holds no spiritual/wisdom value in itself.
It’s like belonging to a fitness club where you go once a week for an hour, do few exercises, usually unfocused and distracted by the crowd and the outfits,
and the rest of the week you sit on the couch eating sugar, wheat and processed food.
To an observer you look unhealthy and are unfit, yet you think: “How can he say that? I belong to a fitness club!”

 March 20, 2014 
I heard a statement on a radio that religious communities in the western world serve no spiritual purpose. They are mostly clubs of social support and provide a group identity to the believers.
My experiences of belonging with four major religions would strongly confirm this observation.
Firstly because of the poor quality of spiritual leadership and secondly most teaching of dogma either carries no spiritual value or is toxic to the mind that is opening to be guided.
In all religions that I am familiar with, there is a greatness of the mind that has no error.
However, when I listen to interpretations of that greatness by not-so-great intelligence and not-so-bright light, my lie detector buzzer goes “wrong! wrong! wrong!” and I have to leave.
That’s how I left all religions behind me. Looking for an inspiring leader in the system created by the ego is a confusing proposition.
Looking for a connection with God in a religious establishment has some merit, since a collective carries a greater power than an individual, providing that the collective
resonates with a higher frequency of love-energy than you do on your own.
Well, that probability in my life, became, thanks to my own efforts, very thin.
March 19, 2014 
Truth is reviled to us either only as a thought or as an experience with an often delayed understanding. It is provided because we request to know through curiosity and questioning.
It means that our Authentic self was in charge of the focus, created an experience and run an explanation through our brain as an instant understanding.
Truth is a revelation what something is and it comes with a peaceful, undebatable solidity.
Speculation about what we don’t know and try to figure out as an intellectual exercise can lead to revelation, but is not a revelation in it itself.
In itself debates and peculations holds no spiritual/wisdom value.
To know this is to create conversations with no conflict and to create it only where we want to experience the truth being reviled.
How far is that from your every day small talk?
March 18, 2014 
If you are on this site I am sure you already understand that the universe is co-created and sustained by our intentions and observations.
Our thoughts create a magnetic energy, which creates fields and the fields shape and hold our collective reality.
From this understanding comes a call for urgent change in personal and social values.
The ego doesn’t like the shift to the new paradigm for one reason: it learned to reap the benefits of the old paradigm and got accustomed to its profits.
The shift to quantum and relativity paradigms will leave the ego rather empty-handed.
Sure it would be great if the ego were an entity that sat on the sidewalk and stared at a water puddles. But the ego is a part of the human brain.
Usually the brain is so vastly filled by the ego programs, holding to it so tightly that an average person comes to believe that the ego is his only identity.
He believes that if the ego was to diminish, he would diminish, and if ego dies, he dies.
Often the belief is so complete that any stab at the individual or collective ego evokes a drastic fight response.
We need to spread the understanding of the difference between the ego identity and the authentic identity, then translate the understanding
into our behavior for humanity to survive.
March 17, 2014
Majority of the studies of human psychological and social functioning, until recently, were about understanding, and with that,
validating the functioning of the ego while at the same time reducing the human to a computer run by the ego program.
Much the same as all other sciences based on Newtonian physics narrowed our interest in the world to poking at a pile of matter.
Yet there is a huge, and essential world beneath that of the ego and of matter, and the time came when we really need to
start focusing on that world, because our narrow scope of observation might soon leave us very little matter to poke at
and no poker to poke with.
March 16, 2014



Travelling for a different reason than looking...

Maybe the reason why travelling is so desirable it is not a change of scenery or climate, but the change of morphogenetic field?

I don't think the concept is known or studied (let me know if you know otherwise), yet it’s obvious to most of people, especially to those who are aware

of more than the eyes can see.

The field is where we store all information (Tata! Memories is not inside the brain!), which are the source of individual human conditioning and values

in a particular society. In others words, The Ego.

Although the field is non-local, it needs a personal reason to be tapped into and the reasons are local. It means I do not wonder what people in Rome

watch in television and what they fight about in their relationships, while I’m sitting in my home in Ontario. If I would visit Italy I would have some

interest to access the field, when observing people and being curious, yet the most obvious reasons I would have if I would live in Italy.

Why it is desirable to change the field?

The field of particular region is of relevance to your life with a huge amount of information. If you want to function in your society, if you want to belong

and relate to people with a sense of commonality, you need to orient yourself in the daily mass of data.  

If you can imagine the field of information as a heavy storm cloud and your need to be well informed is a magnetic charge that you carry, let’s call it “the charge of interest”,

the cloud will be constantly firing a rain of tiny lightning, sending information to you. It will stress you, oppress you and overwhelm you,

and that’s exactly what it does. The field is also a source of a constant train of thought, providing that you carry the magnetic charge.

“A rain of tiny lightning” from a morphogenetic field is not going to come to your body if that body doesn’t carry “the charge of interest”.  

A brake from the impact of the field would be as advisable and as daily meditations or contemplations. 

Now we "really" know why travelling is so desirable.

Somebody should study it and give the public a graph of most desirable location to travel to, based on travelers’ original location and interests

versus the least relevant fields of information.  



March 15, 2014
a continuation of a previous reflection
Now, the Authentic you leaves the physical life, still with all the “diarrhea of the thought” that you experienced when the ego ran your mind ...grandma... Greece...
did I leave a fridge open...more wood... Moon.... where is the cat...is that Bob... 
First it tries to make sense out of all the thrashing about the universe, next tries to replace it with own Authentic intentions.
What an effort must that be!

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